My birthday celebration

My birthday is on 24 July.


My friends celebrated for me on 21 July. It's a surprise day with a surprise cake and a surprise gifts. They really use lots of effort to help me celebrate. Thanks, my dear friends.. I will upload the photos for u all to see.


The actual day of my birthday, i went work. Didn take off bcoz no program mah.. Haha.. My childcare teachers did brought me some vouchers as my present. They even brought a mini cake and the children sang for me. During dinner, my dad asked us to Pu Tian Restaurant to eat as a celebration for my birthday.

By the way, thanks to all who wished me. There are some special and cute ones..like from my aunties & uncle, Rachel, Yan Hui, Cherie, Tim, Eliza, Cheris, Sophia, Gabriel, Angeline, Hwa ee, Lay Yong, Hui Ling, Victor kor, Vickie kor, etc..

Thanks for the presents tat u all gave me.. I love them! I love u too!

Father's side ah ma's b'day dinner.

Just came back from the restaurant.. Bored.. Wanting to go out but only some is ok wif it. Many were tired. Never mind. Next time bah or mayb next few years then hav the chance.
By the way, the dinner didn fill my stomach bcoz when people stop eating, i stop too.. Plus hurting my mood. So didn eat enough. Reach home, start eating the buns tat should be for tml breakfast. Sorry.. Still hungry.

I think tonight is not a wonderful dinner by looking around.. Some tired, some keeps talking.. some alone.. Hmm.. but for me, .... totally spoilt my mood.. BUT... Being in that mood, i went around to take photos. I didn take any photo from my table bcoz it's only left with three gals..and 1 guy. See? No meaning in taking them.. Don feel like forcing them too.. So went on taking other tables. I should say, the most enjoyable table is from all the cousins. But sadly to say, i'm never ever involve in tat table b4.. Usually, always the guys. Funny right? All cousins cannot sit together and hav fun. Ok! Started to sing and blow cake.. My camera went batt low. Wat is the problem sia?


The night didn end meaningless.. One of the big kor kor came and talk to me. He is attending New Creation Church. He told me lots of things that really help me to bring back my mood. Not feeling bored and lonely nw. Cool~

Fatherly love (Feeding dessert)





















Two cuties (Twist)

After so long...

After so long of not blogging.. Hmm.. Not much changes from me. Still the person tat is dislike by someone. Didn show out the hate but always unhappy abt me.. Wat wrong with me? Is it my wrong? Did i not care abt u? Questions & questions are all in my mind.. How can i make u happy?
I mayb not good in making someone smile but i trying.. Why can't u give me chance or guide me?





I'm losing...



I'm tired...




I'm giving up soon







When will you be there for me?






I hoping to be with you always!

Confirm of my work in Childcare

My work have changed to full-time childcare asst. teacher.. Yeah.. Today is my last day working part-time.. And will be stop working at my aunty place soon.. She is still so busy and i feel bad tat i didn help her much..


Don really know wat to say.. I really wan to thank a lots of people and thank God tat he had put tis people in my life.


Tim is leaving the ministy but he is always kept in our heart. He had done a lots of things tat helped me and many others.. I would like to thank Tim behalf of the youths.

Updates on MRT trip with the children.

Hey hey.. I really enjoyed in my childcare job.. The teachers and aunties there are very good to me.. But i don really like Miss Koh.. She is choosy. Small problem also make till big problem.. Anyway, i'm ok wif it.. I really love kids no matter they sings, laugh or sleep. They are all cute and clever kids.

Today, the teachers brought all the children to take MRT. Wow... This is my first outing with all those children. We brought them to Sun Plaza and to eat at Macdonald.. I found out tat Eric (One of the kids) scared of the Macdonald's man.. Hahaha.. After eating, went to take MRT back to Bishan. On the way back in the train, our cute little Mohammed Khair almost felt asleep.. A lots of people laughed at his looks on tiredness. We can't stop laughing too. Indeed, it's really a tired day.




I'm still working at my aunty place.. i wouldn leave bcoz i still need the money to pay my bills and shopping too. Mayb will leave when the childcare give me a confirm answer. Money is getting little and little.. Spent a lots le..

Photo taken on 19 May'07

Celebrated Jia Xin's birthday at Kbox & went for steamboat for dinner...

A day where the answer is out.. Don worry! I wouldn give up so early.. BUT.. Pls don let me wait too long.. The songs will forever kept in my heart till the owner come and collect. Sound weird.. But never mind.

Photos taken on 13 May'07

Photo of us

I love ya!

Sick for four days le

Arr.. have been sick for four days le.. Will it recover? LOrd heal me!


Wat happen? The communication between us have break down? Heart is also not link together.. Am i losing u soon?


My job also came to a choice.. Have to give up one of it..

I feel useless

I don know why sometimes i feel tat i'm useless.. I don know how to let diana happy.. Don know how to teach my youths abt God's word.. Don know how to help those kids who need my help.. I even don know wat am i choosing? Wat wrong wif me?

I feel tired of living in a world tat everyone is doing their own things. Didn care abt each other feeling. Only think so themselves. When i need a hug, also don have.. i know tat someone is trying but haven reach my turn. That person hav been touching my heart.. Even, when i need a shoulder, no one can lend me.

I need more oxygen. I having difficulty in breathing. Really don feel like doing anything.






Can someone just lend a shoulder for me?
Can someone just give me a big hug?

Busy & tired Sat..

Went for Methodist Walk at 7.30am... Got to wake up at 5am, abt 6.30am, uncle Victor fetched me.. But didn sleep well so had a bit headache. Reached there, waiting to start the walk.. When the horn sounds, everyone started the walk.. We decided to walk for 2km but in the end, we walked for 4km.. Wow.. After the walk, went to Pastor Gabriel Liew's house for a quick breakfast & lunch. Nice foods.. Thankz Pastor Liew.. We didn stay long, just for 30 mins.. after tat we all went home for rest. Many of us rushed home as we got to go church in the afternoon. I went home, sleep for half an hour, woke up for a bath and went to church for the easter outreach.



Reached church at 1pm.. Didn expect so late.. Actually should reach at 12.30pm. Never mind.. Went to help the youths, Kar Keat suddenly walked forward, asked me: "Hi Sin ying, are you ok? Need a rest first? U better rest first bcoz we still need u later." I answered: "Hi Kar Keat, oh.. i'm alright. Did went home for a rest." See caring people are alwayz there.. After Kar Keat asked, Gabriel asked me again.. Haha.. Mayb my face can tell tat i'm tired or mayb they know i went for the walk.

Suddenly, diana called.. She wan to go kbox. i went to meet her to pass her the card and in the meanwhile, went MRT fetch my friends. Brought Jia Xin & Yan Hui to the outreach. i did invite Diana too, but she don wan.. i can see God is working on her life bcoz she is changing to b better person. Ok.. still got Doris who still not reach.. i brought my friends to church first then turn back to the MRT to fetch Doris. The programme started with wonderful foods. We got to use the money to buy it.. haha.. Sound interesting? Is true.. We had lots of fun. No matter in games or the speaker, everyone is joining in it. God had the power to change someone.. Jia Xin wasn't in gd mood bcoz of Rocket but after tis outreach, she was smiling all the way. The outreach ended wif songs and God blessing.


To God Be The Glory.

Update on myself

Blog blog blog... How people can blog so much things? i only blog when i hav time or something to tell people. Where do i hav time to blog everyday? So i think that blog is just a diary. Agree? Mayb diana don't.. Never mind.. i learning to control my tank. A tank of emotion. Being a christian hav to control the temper, cannot fight or scold people. This is wat God put us to test. It's not easy to pass this but do pray for wisdom and must remember God put u to test, is bcoz He believe u can do it.


Ok.. i should update my job with u all.. i currently working at a childcare centre at bishan and after that will go my aunty office to work.. So tired everyday.

In the job of a childcare asst. I work from 8.30am to 2pm. I learn a lots of things. Taking care of kids from the age of 18 mths to abt 3 years old.. So.. i learn to change their diapers. It's really a fun job.

I love 10th March 2007.

Hi.. Hello.. I cannot don tell u tat i really love the bbq. The story is..... On 10th March 2007, Diana & i organise a bbq. We invited our friends and two unknown(Means friend's friend). Altogether abt 12 people. The starting of bbq, must start fire first.. Rocket is kind 2 help in starting fire, not like Alan..haha.. and while he doing the fire, Diana & me wash the place so tat it is clean. After all is ready, we had our bbq foods being serve by Rocket & Alan. None of the gals willing 2 cook the foods, let the guys do.. heehee.. We chat and eat at the same time. Really had a fun time together.

As Lay Yong was there too, i left my sit and went to sit beside her. She look better than the day i brought her 2 my church. I went 2 talk 2 her... and i told her abt God & Jesus. When i talking 2 her, my friends were curious on wat i am telling her. I didn say out eventhough i feel like.. I promised her tat i wouldn say out wat we are talking abt. After encouage and telling her, i went back 2 my group of friends. Suddenly, i heard them saying tat Lay Yong's eyes got tears. I was thinking if the Lord touches her heart..

At abt 9.30pm, my friends went home le. That was the time when the rest of us had laughter and tears of joy.. Only left Rocket, Danson, Yee Sheen, Grace, Diana & me.. only left the six of us enjoying the last part of the bbq. By the way, i really thank all of u tat make tis bbq a wonderful memories.

Lesser than last year

Yea yea.. Counted my hong bao money.. Cool.. Got abt a total of $700..but is lesser than last year.. Feel like spending le, hands also itch 2 buy things.. Hmm.. Must control myself..

Last Sunday got commitee meeting but i never go.. Was excused from aunty sally. Miss a lots of the update. So sorry.. Bo pian! Need to go Suntec 4 the career fair. By the way, so happy tat my uncle and aunty come 2 my church on Sunday.. Wow.. God, are u working on them? Or mayb they come bcoz of fetching me 2 Suntec.. It's ok.. i will change 2 be more like Jesus, be more forgiving and not asking too much. Ok.. back 2 suntec.. Went 2 listen 2 some talk.. After walking 4 a while, met Wilson again at Suntec.. He also went 4 the career fair. Anyway, i can see tat he still looking forward 2 my reply. Didn't talk 2 him much for abt a month le.. And didn't see him for last two weeks but he came back again.. Look trouble and keep things in his heart. Aunty sally asked me but i don know.. Should i follow up wif him? Seem that he need 2 tell someone of his trust.

I'm didn't follow up wif my dear youths..not even my lambs in my care.. Valerie & Yvonne, so sorry! Hope i can find time for u all.. Forgive me from not doing my job..


Dearest God, pls don rain on tis Sat as i hav a BBQ.. Lord, bless the BBQ, and nothing will happen 2 any of us.. Thankz! AMEN!

Why do i feel so tired?

Waiting for the Lunar New Year to pass.. Wanting to count my hong bao money.. Time to be busy again. Tired and sleepy.. Feel like sleeping through my whole life. Starting to be lazy.. Hmm.. Do i really care abt my future? Can i choose to be a guy? Mayb some of u know tat i look tomboy.. Being a guy is much better than being a girl.. I feel tired all the time.. Tired of choosing my life, tired of saying the meaning of love.. Saying to this brother of mine, yet he didn understand.. Diana may know who i am saying.. Tim mayb reading and guessing at the same time.

I don think i can be a gd secretary to the commitee.. Still nw i haven type finish the minutes of meeting and this coming Sunday is the meeting.. Wat happen to me? Should i tell aunty sally to find another person to do.. I not gd in writing and reading.. Oh.. i think Diana is going to ask me quit again.. By saying quiting is easy but the doing is hard, And i wouldn quit bcoz my family, relatives, cousins and etc.. I want them to accept Jesus.. So if those who want me 2 quit, know what to do.. Hee hee.. God is waiting 4 your heart 2 open..

CNY is coming.. but i don excited..

Time fly fast as it is coming 2 Chinese New Year.. Let me wish u all nw bcoz i don hav time 2 go online. And i only blog when i really feel like..

Happy Chinese New Year! Blessed New Year! Wonderful New Year!

Enjoy taking the hong bao as we wish each other wif blessing.. hee hee..


I don feel the excited even it's coming to Chinese New Year.. So tired and sleepy tis week.. Want to go out wif friends but not much money to spend. So thinking of doing something else tat is much cheaper to do.. Hmm.. luckily, i brought my new year clothes le.. I spent almost $250 for all the new year stuffs..

I know tat many of u are praying for my family.. Thanks guyz.. My family hav promise to go when Lim Kok Heng ( My grandpa's bro ), come my church and my aunty promise to join my church.. God, continue to let ur love touch my dearest family, relatives, cousins, friends.. And protect Lay yong wif ur healing hands. I looking forward to see them seeking tis gift tat U hav given..

Update of blogskin

How is my blogskin? Is it nice.. Do give some comments.. Hope u all who alwayz come 2 know my life like it. Thankz..


Darren, jia you! Dance and sing ur very best tis Sunday..
i am a bad example... Don follow..

Waiting.. Waiting..

Waiting is a difficult job.. No choice but pray.. OK! Let's me update myself.. OYF kick off at Eliza's house at last Friday. Last Sat, some youths went 4 fusion at Suntec. I did learn some knowledge from the speakers.. After that, meet diana & yee sheen, went VIVO City 2 find the rest of the youths.. Had a gd dinner and enjoying playing pool.. hee hee.. i like playing pool nw.. Hmm.. For last Sunday, YYF kick off.. As i'm a first time cell leader, i still hav the nervous in my heart.. Continue praying as i stepping out of the boat towards Jesus..

Tis week, Sunday, is my church 113th anniversary.. All are welcome, is just a call.. So do call me if u wan 2 come.. Service start at 10am..

Tired.. Busy... True..

Actually i didn think of blogging today as i really don know wat 2 blog.. Diana Yap Chin Ling..Hmm nice name.. LAmE hor.. Do u know i love u.. Hahaha.. Ok! Serious.. hee hee..

Thankz Sophia 4 the diary.. i'm using it nw.. Planning my week and all kinds of stuff.. Planning all the meetings and Youths fellowship.. Yeah! The Lord is using me 2 be a cell leader.. Guyz & Galz, do continue 2 pray 4 me as i stepping out of the boat.. Also pray 4 my faith in the Lord.. I also wan 2 thank my dear lao gong (Tim) as he is alwayz praying 4 me.. Bringing me back from church every week..

Looking forward 2 Friday/Saturday/Sunday as we will hav a wonderful time 2gether.. Oh.. do pray tat day no rain.. Raining days are spoiling my mood..

Pictures of my work

Being a cousin in a family

I know you all don like me 2 be a christian. I know tat all of you already didn wan me as a cousin. Even my sister is better than me.. right? As i say, you all don know wat is the meaning of christian and stop saying tat i have change. Ya ya.. I changed! I can agree wif you. I change becoz I love God more than wat i am the last time. You want me 2 quit church? I can tell you tat it's not going 2 happen. You said tat ur friends who are christian, only go church once/two times in a week. Ok! I goes church a lots of times becoz I want 2 be closer 2 God and I am already a committee member of the youths ministry so i need 2 go.. And i can see tat you all are trying 2 hide all the secret, even the eyes are preventing from me. When playing games, you all enjoy playing wif my sis, but when i join in then u all give me a sianz sianx look.. i can see de lor.. Sometimes, u all make fun of me, i didn get angry and i even allow you 2 continue becoz i just want the laughter and happiness from u all.. I just want 2 see a simple smile 2 prove tat i'm still can let u be happy. Hmm.. Since i was born till nw, i still let you all joke abt me.

I can say tat i still treat u all as my close best cousins but i know you didn treat me in tat way le.. Is ok! I wouldn angry wif you..

Merry Christmas Comment Graphics

Can i hav a better life?

Arr.. i don like 2 make choices.. Choices give me lots of headache.. Every time when i goes out wif friends, i will feel the joy but nw.. Isn't happy or excited.. The feeling is like my heart having a hole.. Mayb bcoz everything in my life is in a mess.. Why mess? Every1 ask me 2 go out on the same day.. Who should i go out wif?

Example: Karen ask me 2 go 4 movie, but in the same day, Pooh ask me 2 go K-Box.. Wat? Who shall i choose? Headache sia..
If i choose Karen then Pooh will angry.. But if i choose Pooh then Karen will say tat i alwayz never care.. Why can't my life be easier? Both are my friends. Karen can be friend wif Pooh and we all can 2gether go out.. But one of them don wan bcoz she only wan me.

I really hav enough of all tis.. i still think tat only God is gd 2 me.. And in my heart no one can replace God.

Non-christian family

Still hoping tat tis Dec can don work.. Got too much programs.. Let me tell u some main ones.. Sorry, not in order..

1. Retreat camp- 19 dec to 21 dec
2. Christmas party wif friendz- 22 dec
3. CCIS- 24 dec
4. Outing- 16 dec
5. Tim's friend- 27 dec
6. Welcome Party- 30 dec

Those who wan 2 go out wif me.. Sure! Just tell me so i can plan my things.. Or else, join my program so tat i don need 2 headache again.. True.. Being a only christian in my family is not easy.. Really hope tat they know God, His love, etc.. Oh.. saying abt tis, i thinking of diana.. She tag on my blog but don dare 2 go my church 2 tell.. She is also once a children of God but nw.. Mayb not..surely not.. But never mind.. i can continue 2 pray 4 u..

JOB..JoB.. Job..

Can i don work on tis December.. really don feel like.. i want 2 join my church programs and my friends birthday party.. I told my parents but in the end is scolding and nagging from them.. My mom still say tat wan 2 tell aunty sally tat bcoz of church i become lazy.. Ya.. if i don work, no money 2 spent. My parents went 2 tell my aunties and cousins, so nw every1 ask me 2 forget abt church and better choice is go church when i am free.. and i am childish.. Wat? Can u believe i don go church 4 one month and i say tat i love God.. No! No! i really can't stand wat my parents do.. I love GOD and his house ( Church ).. No matter wat, i wouldn leave church and my dear youths bcoz i still got a lot of things 2 learn from them.. By the way, only the LOrd can heal my heart.

Thankz 4 all the prayer

Hi.. thank God tat my uncle came home le.. He can go back 2 work le..

Eliza, jia you in ur coming exam.. Don worry, the lord will be wif u through all ur studying.. u are remembered in my prayer..

A verse 4 all of u:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Don know wat 2 type..

My aunty just came out of the hospital but my ah gu(Mum's bro) went 4 operation and stay at East Shore Hospital nw.. Today, i went 2 visit him wif my mummy.. He still the way he is, having a smile on the face no matter wat happen.. That really brighten me.. We didn stay at the hospital too long.. Reached home, recieved a call from one of my relatives.. My mum answered the phone and heard tat my relative(Christian) went 2 hospital last nite bcoz of a sudden heart attack.. Nw still in ICU at Changi General Hospital.. In a week, total of three people tat are close 2 us went 2 hospital.. Lord, heal them..

Thankz God..

Wow.. God is so gd... He is SO GOOD 2 me.. Why? Hmmm.. i saw Angeline today wif her parents at the MRT.. Of course, i went up & say hi.. but seem tat she & her parents are going 4 dinner soon, so i didn talk much 2 her.. Anyway.. Thankz God.. Finally, i can see her than i keep on thinking or guessing abt her life.. Thankz God..

A filming at Carpark..

Sorry! I never go 2 prayer meeting last nite. I got 2 help diana in her project. We meet at 6pm. Abt 6.30pm, we reach Toa Payoh, planning 2 start our project but we found out that we still need glass wine 4 the filming. After we bought it, we went 2 Sam's house. Didn't expect tat the time already 7.30pm.. They ask me change the clothes that suit the story. At first, i don know wat is my role but after i know.. I was shocked, bcoz i need 2 role play having candlelight dinner wif a guy at the carpark. Hmm.. i was 2 put makeup and dress so formal. In my heart, never mind, since i willing 2 help diana in her project.

Ok.. i go straight 2 the important/funny things that happened. Firstly, i need 2 act that i'm his galfriend so..all the holding of hands and worse of all..there is a kissing role. Don worry, it's just acting, not real. But we still burst out of laughter. After all the fliming, the time was already almost 12am.. Wow, i can understand how tired 2 be an actor/actress. It's time 2 eat some food ( we didn't eat dinner). One of the team-mate sitted at a hole 2 enjoy his food. His face and action showed us tat he was too hungry 2 care abt the place.

Reached home around 12.30am.. In that minute of thinking, i don wan 2 work the next day as i'm sure i hav not enough of sleep.. But in the end, i still went 2 work.

Yeah!!

God is good all the time.. Yeah, it's true.. He give me friendz, a wonderful family, cousins, my loving church youths.. Wow.. He is greater than wat we can think..

Ah..ya.. i got a new computer le.. Thankz Tim! Thankz 4 all the energy 4 doing tis computer.. Those tat dun know, we fix a new computer from 7pm to 1am.. Poor Tim, hav 2 come 2 my house on the next day 2 continue..

Got 2 update u all abt my work. Still got two weeks 2 take my pay(looking forward 2 the day). My work is like facing the computer 2 whole day by checking and editing the engineer project. Tis job is a intro by my cousin.. Since i accept le tis job so i will try my best 2 learn something in the company. At first i didn't wan tis job bcoz i don wan 2 hav fight wif him.. His mom is my godma..ya, i agree.. i look like a spy tat send by his mom. But i not tat type of person.. i just wan 2 be a gd god-sis or cousin but he keep thinking tat i wan 2 spy on him.. Viceroy, if u really don feel like seeing me working wif u then u tell me.. i don like 2 see people upset bcoz of me, i only wan a smile in ur face.. i really miss the time, when all the cousins are 2gether having fun & laughter.. Never mind, tat the past, it wouldn't be the present or future.. We are just like normal friend, not close anymore.

Today, i went 2 the career fair in ITE College East.. Hmm.. also meet some of my friends and we hav lunch 2gether.. Really miss the time when i still studying.. Ok.. end 4 today.. need a nap nw.. Still hav 2 help diana in her project later..

Computer spoilt

Arr.. Starting of a day wif a scolding from mummy.. Hmm.. don feel like going out leh, except church bcoz in church i can feel better.. God's love is the only one tat can heal my heart..

Oh .. forgotten 2 tell u all tat my computer is spoilt.. so worse nw.. cannot go online often.. sianz.. i got 2 save money nw.. Really hav 2 save.. Bcoz i need 2 pay 4 my own computer..

Sick..becoz of the haze..

Update of me...

On 3rd of October, is a Tuesday. I suddenly had block nose & sore thoat. I know tat I going 2 be sick.. After work, I went home 2 have my medicine. Till Thursday, it still didn't get well. Arr.. all becoz of the haze..

By the way, Wednesday, i didn't go prayer meeting bcoz of my health.. I know tat i got duty 4 the OHP.. Sorry, i cannot come..

Ok..back 2 Thursday.. Ya.. Finally, i went 2 see doctor.. The doctor didn't give me MC so next day i still have 2 work.. Hmm.. By nw, i still coughing.. and my voice change.. i nw sound like a man..hee hee.. Thank God, i didn't have sore thoat le..

Sat.. i don think i going church.. i better stay at home & rest.. Hope tat i can recover soon.. I will be back, my dear youths..

Tim, thankz 4 ur sms.. Care 4 all of us all the time.. Pray 4 all of us..

Only Sat & Sun

Sorry..never update often.. Only Sat/ Sun can update.. sianz.. Keep on feeling tired..

Hope 2 go shopping later.. Feel like buying clothes 4 myself.. Don know wat 2 do nw..mayb meeting my sec friends later..

Nothing 2 say le.. Got 2 go..Bye!

Much better after all..

Thankz every1.. All ur concern and love.. It really touch my heart.. If u all are not there esp my dearest youths, i mayb fall on the ground le.. Thankz God 4 sending all tis youths 2 my life.. They brighten my life.. No one may understand the feeling but i do.. Is just like when u are in the forest with fire burning and some1 came 2 save u out and cheer u.. U may scared till u can't talk but tis person pray 4 u..And even sit beside u till u are back 2 ur normal self..

Thankz Eliza 4 the sms tat let me know Lord is still beside me and the prayers.
Thanks Tim 4 the prayers and care 4 me.
Thankss all the youths 4 praying 4 me, i can feel the sisters and brothers love from all of u.
Thankzz Diana 4 2gether cried wif me in Long John Silver.

Do remember 2 pray 4 diana too bcoz she mayb having 心里问题.. She afraid of a lots of things suddenly.. And mayb need 2 see doctor if it is serious..

Ok.. Should end here le.. i not going church tml bcoz i meeting diana and her friendz.. Sorry!
i LovE u All..

Family problem..

Family means Father And Mother I Love You.. But in my family, love has started 2 find funny.. Hmm..mayb bcoz my father going 2 lose his company anytime.. He already haven take salary 4 more than two months.. Nw he is so worry tat we hav no food/money. i wan 2 help but don know wat 2 do.. Arr..Yesterday, at my father's office, get scolding 4 going out wif friends.. Wat their problem? i working so cannot go out wif my friends so i choose 2 go out wif them yesterday. Since i so long never go out 4 a walk, talk wif them on the way & hav fun & laughter.. Do u believe i usually go bugis alone.. ya..i not mature enough..i don know how 2 think 4 my family & my future.. So? Everything they say abt me, i also cannot fight 4 my rights.. Only way, keep in my heart..(crying) Nw, i hav 2 pay my family water & electrical bills.. My hp bill also hav 2 ownself pay le.. They also don know tat every night b4 i sleep, i cried.. Ok la.. don wan 2 say le..

Dance is fun..

Working at my aunty office is still ok.. but why must i find a job tat my mom likes... She keeps on asking me 2 find a job tat not related 2 my family members..

Ok.. tis sunday, my mom said tat she coming 2 my church.. cool sia.. finally tis day hav come.. But i must try 2 remember the steps in the dance.. Ya.. i will be dancing at my church on tis sun.. At first is 8 people are dancing but in the end only left 6 people.. Hmm.. Worried.. i still not very sure abt the steps for flags tat i just learned yesterday.. oh.. i scared i forget.. Worse.. i stand at the front..

I tell myself tat i must do it and remember every steps but still not really.. When the music start, i get nervous.. LOrd, bless me..Lord, guide me.. I lift it to your hands..

No time..so busy..

Li Ting and Wan Chan Birthday is today.. Morning wake up and get scolding from mum..sianz.. Later, still got dance practice in church..hmm..i still worry i cannot remember the steps..

I am so busy..but don know busy abt wat...

Changing job soon

Oh.. i wan 2 thankz those tat gave me presents and those tat celebrated wif me.. Sorry! So late then say.. By the way, hmm.. 18 le.. Must change my thinking 2 a young adult.. And most important, must grow in the Lord..

Soon, i will b changing my job.. Every1 asked me 2 change job bcoz of the pay.. Will update again wif u all..

Lost a lots of things..

So long never blog.. Don know why i apply tis blog.. But nw i think is bcoz i can say out my happy and sad moments here.. Since, no one willing 2 be my hearing ears.. My family also don wan 2 hear me say...

I nt happy today bcoz they only know 2 say my weak points..
Example:
1) My family members told others people tat i nt clever..

2) My aunty said tat i don know how 2 think 4 the future..

3) My relatives said tat i am childish..

Why must they say tis.. Hurt me.. Worst is they say behind my back..

In my mind..

Instructions:Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.
Don't read the questions before you write and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1. Yee Sheen
2. Wen Shan
3. Viceroy
4. Eliza
5. Desmond
6. Sophia
7. Cheris
8. Constance
9. Angeline
10. See Ying
11. Gabriel
12. Inn Zheng
13. Diana
14. Vickie
15. Rui Xian
16. Derrick
17. Jia Xin
18. Cherie
19. Yan Hui
20. Wilson

1. How did you meet #14?
Ans: Hmm..my cousin but nw my God bro.

2. What would you do if you had never met #1?
Ans: Will b sad bah..She is a nice gal.

3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
Ans: Angeline & Wilson?..i don think she will choose him..

4. Would #6 & #17 make a good couple?
Ans: Both r galz..not really can b couple..But both of them know Jasper..

5. Describe #3.
Ans: Hee..Nice, veri man, lovable, cute, like 2 see him smile..taller than mi..

6. Do you think #8 is attractive?
Ans: Ya..by guys..She is pretty and cute lor..

7. Tell me something about #7.
Ans: Love 2 eat.. Love yellow colour.. Hate cockroach..

8. Do you know anything about #12's family?
Ans: He is the only son..His father alwayz fetch him 2 church..

9. What's #8's favourite?
Ans: Should ask mi wat #8 hate..i think she like pink bah..

10. What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
Ans: Hmm..i will b telling him tat u r like my kor..

11. What language does #15 speak?
Ans: Chinese.. Sometimes mixed too..

12. Who is #9 going out with?
Ans: Dun know..But i know she love 2 go out wif Eliza & Constance.

13. How old is #16 now?
Ans: Same as me.. 18 tis year..

14. When was the last time you talked to #13?
Ans: Yesterday..

15. Who's #2's favourite singer?
Ans: Huh? Don know leh! English songs..

16. Would you date #4?
Ans: If i am a guy, of course yes..

17. Would you date #7?
Ans: Hmm..ya..she is a nice gal.

18. Is #15 single?
Ans: Ya.. Mayb nw hav stead but never tell me..

19. What is #10's last name?
Ans: Haha..how can i don know my sis name..hee..

20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19?
Ans: She is my best friend. She has a sweet smile..

21. What schools did #3 go to?
Ans: Tao Nan Pri... Broadrick Sec..

22. Where does #6 live?
Ans: Serangoon

23. What's your favourite thing about #5?
Ans: Handsome..Know wat i wan in my life..

24. What do you think of #18?
Ans: Cute..Her smile can brighten ur days.

25. What do #4 & #19 have in common?
Ans: Both galz.. Both of their hugs give mi strengh in my life.

26. What special qualities does #17 hold in your life?
Ans: A gd friend tat can be fun every day.. She is a veri gd sis in sch..

Know each other more..

On 19/6, after my dinner, at 7.45pm reached the St. Andrew Village where the retreat is. Really looking forward 2 see/join them..When i saw them, they r having gallery walk. Abt 11.30pm, we had 2 sleep. We quickly prepared the place and sleep at abt 12am. I cannot sleep the whole nite. Don understand why? Mayb still not use 2 sleeping on the floor..
Next day, some of us cannot wake up in the morning..So..a lots of the plans went out of time. We rushed 4 almost all the things..esp Tim, he is so unhappy bcoz he cannot shared.. Tat is bad, dun learn from us being not having puntuality..Anyway, all the programs are wonderful. I love most is the sharing among us.. I really feel better after saying it out. All the sins and all the things tat kept in our heart 4 so long, i say all out in the sharing..Example: I feel tat my family and i are having a gap. My sis don understand wat i am talking and she don listen 2 me..My parents only know is ask me wat i wan 2 study and help me choose a course 4 me 2 study, never think if i like it. I really don know wat course 2 take, why can't they give me time 2 think.
Let come back 2 the retreat..Hmm..all the galz cry but guyz are mayb scared pai seh so they never cry..ok..after all tis sharing, every1 in the youths is closer.. Anyway, the food is nice. Must really thankz all the people tat prepared and brought all tis food. I took off on Tuesday is the correct choice. I can enjoyed the games wif the rest of the youths tat came at abt 3.45pm. Cheris and Cons prepared the games. Thankz..both of u hav done a gd job.. I can see tat all the youths enjoyed all the games. There also a special guest been invited. He is cool sia.. I find him cool bcoz of the white hair in the middle of his hair. He had wif us all 2gether three sessions. The first session, i was not there. I cannot get leave from work. Never mind, at least i can stay overnite 4 one nite. The second and thirth sessions are meaningful. I learned a lots from his sharing. After all tis fun, is time 4 me 2 go back home bcoz of the next day i hav 2 work.. Happy time fly veri fast but i wouldn 4get tis moments we r 2gether..
Reach home, thought tat my parents or my sis will ask me question..like: Is it fun? Got miss papa, mummy, mei mei? BUT..none of them ask.. i wanted 2 tell them abt the fun i had but they are busy doing their things..
I wouldn like 2 thankz the youths 4 letting me come 2 the retreat..Thankz aunty sally,Uncle victor,Tim,Kar Keat and Eliza 4 all the preparation.. Most of all..Thankz the Lord..

Blog..wat happen?

Suddenly, my blog went mad.. don allow mi 2 type and see it.. Nw..hee hee..i repair le.. Wat 2 blog? oH ok..i pass my piano exam..not very high marks but at least i pass..i thought i will fail..

Sorry, i cannot get off 4 three days..so i will be going only on 20/6.. Anyway, thankz 4 letting mi hav a chance 2 go.. By the way, i really regret tat i cannot go when u all r going 2 the holiday inn at malacca last year during the June.. Hope 2 be there too..i wan 2 hav the fun too..

Fail 2 go higher nitec

I wouldn't be sad if i never get in 2 higher nitec.. i already prepare my heart 2 accept it.. Nw i hav 2 think wat 2 study le..Should i study part-time course or go and learn from outside sch? Blur gal sia..i am a stupid gal..My parents still thought tat i can study accounting so tat my future is better..But i cannot get in..They r very sad bcoz of mi.. Wat 2 do? I also cannot turn the time back 2 change the fact.. Nw only can pray tat the Lord can lead mi 2 the path.. I'm lost..Pls tell mi wat 2 do..

Pic tat taken on the parents' nite..

Taken in church..Vanness's birthday

update myself

Nwadays, so worry abt my result whether i get in 2 my course.. No news yet..LOrd bless mi..If tis course suit mi, pls let mi get in.. i already don know wat 2 do if i don get the course..

Last sat, the dinner is nice but a bit salty.. Really hav lots of fun.. Bring a friend, my family, my godma, my cousin, my aunty and uncle.. Hope they really enjoy sia.. After the dinner, all the youths took a photo..when i receive the pic, i will upload 4 u all 2 see..

I think a lots of people think tat i hav a stead le..The ans is NO.. Wilson and mi are friends..i also told him le.. Friday, suddenly he told mi tat he admire one of my churchmate..i told him 2 tell her but he say tat he still wan mi.. I really don know..i lost..i still don know wat 2 do..

Hmm..feel so excited

Oh..finally, today is Sat again..2nite, my family and i are going 2 a dinner organise by my church..Felt so excited..i also invited my friend..hee hee..Hope tat they really enjoy today..God, touch their hearts 2nite..Let them know u more..

I really enjoy working at my aunty office.. She takes care of mi.. Wow.. Thankz sia.. Oh ya..time flies..My grandmother had came back from USA.. Cool..She brought back a lots of things.. Got chewing gums, clothes, pants, sweets..etc.. She loves all her grandchildrens...ecspecially mi..Thankz god.. Grandmother, i also love u..

Still no news..

Arr..hate it..My ite result still not out..Every1 is studying le and i am still working..Wat if i never get in? i really don know wat 2 do..Hope tat God can lead mi the way..

Today, go temple..feeling sorry 4 God..Hope he can forgive mi..

Oh..man!

Nw the world know wat happen 2 he and mi le..but we hav end the relationship..Nw many problem came..Sophia is my churchmate and she know a guy and tat guy was my sec friend stead..Oh..Nw they haven problem..They don wan 2 hurt each other..Hmm..don only say them..Me too..Problem is also wif me nw..Wat 2 do? I'm scared..i worry abt them..i really don know wat 2 do.. Me, i left him and ask him 2 find tat gal tat like him..i can only do tis bcoz i really cannot feel it..ya! Hurt? i still must say a bit..Left a person tat u hav been 2gether wif 4 more than three weeks..Of course will hurt a bit.. i did cry 4 a while but after tat..i'm ok.. Hope tat every things can be alright..

Tml, had 2 work le..Take care! God bless..Smile!

Mayb helping my aunty

Just nw, my mom ask me whether i wan 2 help my aunty in her office? i really don know..She said tat i hav 2 go and help her le bcoz she went 2 tell my aunty i'm very free at home..i also haven tell her the ans..Never mind, don fight wif her..Tml had 2 work le..so fast..Is it the choice tat i wan? i only can say is..i willing 2 try..Hmm..i hope tat Sat and Sun can go 2 work..Oh ya..must remember 2 tell the churchmates..Nowadays, my memory is bad..Yesterday, went orchard shopping..Wow..cool..hav a fun time..Hope can go out again and hav fun..

Today, is Wed, got prayer meeting 2nite..tis friday cannot hav follow up wif aunty sally again..Last week just continue, tis week again must stop.. I already brought my family tickets le..and they agree 2 go..Nw is my godma..i wan 2 bring her and her family..She say ok but i mayb hav 2 pay 4 her first bcoz she nw having problem in her work place..I looking forward 2 tat day..i also ask wilson if he wan 2 invite some friends or his family..Hmm..ya..i think most of u think tat he and me is 2gether..Not really..i really don know wat 2 do..He is tall but i am short..People, give me some comment? Should i be wif him?

just feeling..

Today, Sat..later need 2 go church..so excited..Going 2 learn Jewish dance..hee hee..Nw i only can go online 4 only 2 days..so little..

Just nw, got a call from some1..Her temper is still bad..a bit of things also angry..ya..i like 2 go church..so wat? I love 2 be a christian..i love GOD..i believe in HIM..No one can change my mind..I never go out wif u bcoz u need 2 do ur project..u r so busy..I asked u 2 go out wif mi and my friends but u don wan..i always go out wif u and ur friends..u also never go out wif my friends..i really don know why u think tat i hav change..i still a gal tat always stand a side 2 look after u and 2 protect u from evil..

By the way, i really don know wat 2 say..Life is in a little mess nw..

Finally..Stop le

Finally, stop working le..They still keep on calling mi 2 work..but i rejected..Finally, i can go 2 church again..HEE Hee..So happy!

I think some people know why he come 2 my church..ya..mayb is tat thing ba..Yesterday, i never go church, i went 2 temple..He also never go..Must i go then he will go? Tis let mi think tat he go church bcoz of mi..Not by his heart..Wat can i do? And nw..Someone is tagging my blog 2 jio mi but don tell mi the name..YA..i agree wif Eliza..So childish..Wan 2 jio some1 must be brave 2 say out..Not just say, must do too..

Tis few days, keep on going out wif friendz and my only dearest cousin..Hav lots of fun wif them..Thankz 4 giving mi so nice and happy memories..i will never 4get de..

The day..Happy/Sad?

Today, brought a guy 2 church..hee hee..every1 saw him and was shocked..He is so TALL lor.. He also hav lots of fun in the church...and wan 2 join my church.. Hmm..after church went home, get scolding from parents..They scold tat i went church 4 so long then come back..Scold tat i always play computer..They never even understand the problem..They only know is scold and scold..Break my heart only..Need someone 2 concern or hug mi..i really feel like crying..

haha

I had a wonderful time yesterday..The dinner is nice and fun..I had lots of laugher..The programme is well organised.

Any1 wan 2 come my church tis sunday? Tis sunday, got a lady talking abt her life after her disfigured face...Wan 2 know how she face her life? Come 2 Kampong Kapor Methodist Church at 2pm..More information, call mi or sms mi..

I received a call from the job tat i apply..They reject mi..Sad..Worse..They say i not suitable 4 tis job bcoz of my height and small in size.. i must start jumping le so tat can grow a few more cm..

Tml had 2 apply my course again..Hope i can get in lor..Parents r saying tat i am lazy le..Why? Is it bcoz i not studying and working nw? What kind of job should i choose? I must choose a job tat i also can go church..I don wan 2 miss it...

Long long no see

Yoz...just came back..hmm..don know wat 2 blog..i know a guy recently, he jio mi out...beg mi 4 so long..Everyday, sms mi...i can one day receive abt 25 msg from him...so fan...He so tall lor..He stand up, i haven even reach his shoulder...SO TALL.. i see him till my neck tired..Is he ok 2 mi..

Don know wat 2 study nw..cannot go in 2 Accounts in ITE(simei).
Stopping piano le..My aunty help mi find a job le..mayb working soon bah..

sorry..

hmm..finally, my com is ok..thankz tim... i stopping piano soon le..hmm..i still don know wat 2 do..finding job but no job tat allow mi 2 get off on sat & sun..i wan 2 go church..Life is so bored..and i always play computer games..sianz..

I hope my family also can go wif mi 2 church..God, when will tis happen? i will wait till the day comes..Lord, i hope u can change diana's mind..She don dare 2 come church..She scared 2 face some of the youths..Lord, clear her mind..she still love u..She nwadays, so busy abt her project..U give her the wisdom 2 do it..She is a clever and cheerful gal tat i know since she born..i wan 2 see her smile again..

Why is tis happening?

Galz are alwayz a toy..and guyz are playing it..Why? Galz gave more than recieve..When is the true love coming..they only know how 2 play then loving us...

Happy time don really last..

Time fly so fast..Life is special.. nw at my cousin's house..don know wat 2 do..hmm..so i blog..wat 2 type? Anyway, thankz god 4 letting mi 2 come..and we had lots of fun sia..But veri fast..is going b late le..soon we hav go home..

Hmm..i received a sms..is a guy send mi de..He ask mi a lots of things, but i only tell him some..hee hee..i still thinking abt the question he asked mi..

Chinese new year..

Wow..i had a wonderful new year eve dinner..thank god..every1 enjoy..

Hmm..Happy new year! Today, wearing new clothes..yeah.. Morning, went wif pa pa 2 lion dance..Noon, went 2 grandma house(father's side).. Then 2 ah ma house(mom's side).. Go some others place also..feel tired le...i also play wif my cousins poker cards..hmm..not bad sia..i won $10..but lost at mahjong..arr..cannot, tml must win back..

Never go church today..Have a chinese new year service but can't go.. Never mind, tue, they mayb coming my house 4 a visit..Ok lor..(yawn) Hmm..too tired le..feel like sleeping le..Gd nite! Seem tat my eyes can't stand anymore..Ok..Time 2 sleep..

hmm..tired sia

Today, help out in cleaning the house..pack my cardboard..sianz..Nw then i know, i got so much rubbish in my cardboard..wow, time pass so fast..i haven eaten my lunch..so hungry..had 2 ownself cook fried rice..no one at hm..Mum went OG 2 buy new year clothes..Say abt new year clothes, i still lack of one jeans and a top 2 suit my skirt..Left only 5 days..arr..how?

Sunday(22/1)..After service, went out wif the youths..we walk from Heeren..to Cine, Taka, Wisma then Far East...Walk so much but never found any clothes i like..Waste of time sia..

my future?

hmm..i mayb studying accounting..A lots of people say accounting is gd 2 mi and my future..ok la.. Just came back from prayer meeting..Pray 4 a lots of sick people and learn a lot of bible things..hmm..hope tat the lord can heal them..

Chinese new year is coming le..quite fast sia..For kids like us, only collecting hong bao..but for the adults, hee hee..they hav 2 take out their money.. I also hope tat chinese new year is every day, so tat i can buy new clothes..haha..

End here..Happy new year 2 every1..tk care! God bless..

hmm..sad

1/1/06(Sunday)(7pm)
Why do i like 2 go church? Mayb bcoz is tis church tat bring me 2 God..And is the people in the church tat let me know God..The youths r nice & kind..Aunty Sally is the ones tat teaches me a lot of bible knowledge..Thankz a lots 2 them..
Today, we hav outdoor service. I enjoyed a lots. After service, some of the youths came back 2 church 4 meeting. They are voting 4 the chairman of the youth service. I don know tat i cannot vote, so i went 2 vote and suddenly aunty sally, in front of some youths, stopped me. I was shocked. My heart sank..i don know tat i don hav any place in her heart..They should tell me b4 i vote..i was so bai peh..I wanted 2 cry but not in front of them..
Sorry tat i said tis..but i will still belong 2 tis church & youth group..(read le but don say out)

hmm..lame leh..

Christmas over..but never forget the happy moments..hee hee..New year is coming le, i still don know wat 2 do leh.. Should i continue studying or working? Waiting 4 ans..

yeah! Merry Christmas! (25/12/05)

Ho ho hO..Merry Christmas! Just came back from the Lee's family..So tired sia. We slept at abt 5.30am..i first time so late sleep..We play mahjong the whole night..today, going godma's house celebrate then go my uncle's house..never go church..hmm..haven tell some of u yet..i not working nw le..Hope today i will have a wonderful celebration ba.. later, i had 2 go church and pass them the presents tat i brought from malaysia..Hope they like it..Anyway, it's food & sweets.. Ok! Time 2 prepare my lunch le..Hungry le..Tk care! Wish u all a merry x'mas..God bless..

thankz..

thankz god.. Yesterday, Eliza & Cheris from my youths came and visited mi..thankz sia.. Nw working, so never blog 4 so long le.. i miss church leh! They hav so much programs but i cannot join bcoz of working.. Today, i need 2 train some1 leh..first time.. hee hee.. Some time u can see mediacorp actess/actor when u r working..haha..gd right? Oh..i going malaysia on 17/12, cannot join the church dance.. Sad..veri sad..but i still will go 4 the dance practice on every Tue.. Tk care..Smile!

so big lor..

Wow..so big lor..ToyRus at Suntec is veri big sia..My legs are so tired..Walk here walk there..Talked to 10 customers, only 1 respond de.. so many proud people there.. But luckily, i meet a gd friend there..He is quite friendly..hmm..hee hee.. I should start work at 17 nov de but i tell them tat i need 2 go church and tell them first.. Sunday, i told them and also brought some chocolates and sweets 4 them..so sorry..i again not going church 4 two months..Veri sorry.. By the way, thankz 4 the prayers..i am so touched..

Working le, cannot take off on Sunday..Miss church, miss them lor..Is them who let mi know God de.. Without them.. still nw, i still don believe..Thankz a lots 2 aunty sally, tim and all the youths.. I will try my best 2 come back church as soon as possible..and learn more abt God..

arr..raining..

hehe..i got a job le..It's at Suntec ToyRus, but only Tuesday off..How 2 go church? Tian kong is raining nw..one person at hm, so scared of thunder..Lord, take away the fear from mi.. Tis week is my last 2 go church..i must enjoy myself wif them b4 i go work on Monday.. Again, two months cannot church..arr, hate sia..hate the feeling.. Should i go oversea during Dec? Life is full of questions/problems..hmm..mayb tis is wat our lord test us, like our exam like tat..hee hee..oh my..(i jump up) suddenly thunder went so loud..better don use com le..later thunder strike my com, it will blow de..

hmm..changing my blogskin..

hMm..today, last day of sch le..i think i will miss the happy moments in sch.. Take care, my friendz.. oh ya..i change my blogskin le..hee hee.. became fairyland..haha..i find it cute..hmm..last sunday, i went 2 play the Moloploy game..lots of fun..wish tat our church also hav tis.. Tml, going interview le..so excited..going 2 work again but i scared tat if i worked, i cannot go church le..How? i miss church..i miss my churchmates..God guide me 2 the correct way..

10/11/05~nothing 2 do

Today, no sch..stay at home.. quite bored..play games on net..hmm..sianz sia..feel like watching movie but must save money first..

Must study 4 next week exam le..

hurry..tag mi.

i spent 30mins 2 make my tag board..finally, nw can le.. must tag mi hor..don forget! oh..today is Sunday..going church later..should i go church and study? At hm, i only know how 2 slackz..cannot really study.. Viceroy's birthday coming..i wish 2 go his house and stay but how 2 tell my parents? Next sunday, cannot go church..i went 2 join a game of Monopoly..will i win them? Mayb not..so long never play le..Stay happy alwayz 2 all my friendz! Miss ya..

yoz..yesh!

Yesh! yeah! i can hav my own com nw..don hav 2 share wif my sis..My sis and i can go internet at the same time le..hmm..feeling gd.. later going 2 cut my hair le..should i go swimming tis evening? Must prepare my test 4 16 nov de..sianz..i study but cannot go in my brain..nw raining, one person at home..surf the net 4 fun..hee hee..

so angry...

hmm..i got some shoes here, size 37...any1 wan? u can take and deco urself, or deco ready de.. so angry today.. had a fight wif my sis.. She took my things without permission & say is hers.. i ask her if can wan 2 watch tv, she say yes but in the end, she was reading her storybook thanwatchingso i off the tv..and she scold mi " it's none of ur business, i on also nt u on." i cannot stand her la..why do i hav a sis ta is like tat.. i wan 2 go out.. stay at home is so suckz.. i wan 2 cry out...but how? i don wan 2 let people see..veri pai seh..

my stupid exam finish..but coming the next..

yoZ..yeah! yesh! My piano exam finish..but the next exam coming.. sianz sia.. hmm..i mayb going church later.. i waiting 4 my holiday 2 come, wan 2 go out, watch movies, stay at cousins place.. arr..my brain is thinking of playing..Must study first..Lots of people birthday at December, i need 2 buy presents..oh..going 2 hav a hole in my pocket..haha..hmm..must save money first..hee hee..Germaine went Korea le, started 2 miss her.. we called her 2 bring back some leaves 4 us.. i going 2 change my com le..My aunty gives mi hers..thankz aunty.. i will miss tis com de, will it miss mi? Of course yes..Hee Hee..ok la..i nw going 2 clean my house le..gtg le..

veri fast...

hmm..do my work finish le..teacher allow us 2 surf net.. Sch dayz r going 2 end soon..will miss my friendz veri much..we had so much happy times 2gether..Must stay in touch hor..Sat is my day of dying.. bcoz of tat stupid exam lor.. i wan 2 learn only, not for exam..and i hate 2 b a teacher..but she wan mi.. How can i reject her? One of my friend, today going oversea 4 holiday le..Miss her sia.. Can she put mi in her luggage so tat i can go wif her..hee hee..i crazy la..i looking forward to Christmas.. i wan 2 join caroling again..hehe..it's fun leh..singing and singing..sound like my name..haha..i'm crazy sia.. faster holiday..i wan 2 join some holiday programme..Or mayb finding a job..earn money..

So funny..

haHa.. Sunday, never go church..i went 2 one of my friend's house 4 a swim..after tat went back sch.. Need 2 ran with Dr Tan, the person tat wan 2 hit the 48 hrs world record.. The mediacorp came our sch and film..Some of the jue dui superstars also came..hee hee..they had 2 sing and run in the same time.. i got use my friend's camera 2 take some pic..if u wan, can take from mi but my friend never send mi leh.. Ok la..don talk abt tis le..let u all know..i ran wif my teacher & friendz 4 more than 10 rounds the track..hmm, i never ran so many rounds b4.. then suddenly my teacher told us tat day was one of my classmate birthday, so she wan us go and take a bottle of water..after the ran, we sing him a birthday song then open the bottle and pour the water on him..teacher so bad..bully him..He was so wet..haha..anyway, we had lots of fun..

hmm..don know how 2 explain

sianz siA.. My liFe is so bitter leh.. thE stupid exam is on next sat..HOW? will i pass? Hopeless sia.. Dun feel like toking abt tis..Hate it so much.. Yesterday, i sign in MSN, a guy add mi..i don know him but i accept him and start asking who r u? His name is Alex, 20, stAy neaR Kovan...He also give mi his hp no...he ask 4 mine, i give him my created no..hee hee..i so bad right? hmMm..now i got four computer at my house.. people ask if i am mad abt computer is it? Never mind..When can i go out and went crazy...i cannot take it le.. Even i sleep i will think of piano..i hav bad dream, so scary till sometimes i cry..my life is so different from others..

Aunty sally, Tim..They wan mi 2 help 2 think of some programs 4 our youthz during November & December.. Hmm..wat shall i plan..Mayb..Dun tell first..i meet Tim tml first..Hee hee..

Where r u?? i wan a hug..

Lession end early today...hee hee..mayb going out wif friendz 2 forget unhappy thing but in the end never..life is so bad nowadays..who can change my life..i wan a hug..who can give mi..

Sigh! Wo yao ni!!

Nw in sch.. nothing 2 do..no one online..feel like going home and sleep..When can i give up on piano..i don wan 2 go 4 the exam, i only wan 2 learn...SSG exam finish..i hav displayed some pics le, wan 2 see? go friendster and see lor.. i suddenly call Her as Jie jiE..Will she accept tat? i don know why after she hav tat stupid fever, i started 2 worry abt her.. Mayb bcoz i don hav any elder sis and no one 2 talk to as my sis is only pri four...Let god decide my future..

Yeah!!

Yesh!! Yeah!! My com hav internet le.. today, i need 2 wear office wear..hee hee..sure ugly de..Need 2 makeup..i never do tis b4... In MRT, people look at mi.. so pai seh! Am i funny in office wear? So long never play basketball le.. Going shorter again.. hmm.. Where r u? When i sad or lonely, i need u but u forget me...Miss u leh..Tk care! Must go makeup le..

my com no internet le..

i cannot surf net le.. sad! Nw only way is 2 stay back in sch and surf... sianz.. last week, i took a bus then a mad guy ask mi some stupid questions.. Luckily, i need 2 go down the bus le.. He ask if i hug a bloster or rub the bloster...hmm..so dirty! My piano exam coming again..Why? i wan 2 give up...The teacher makes mi hate piano..Every nite, i will cry b4 i felt asleep...Why? i wan 2 die leh!! I don wan tis 2 happen.. Can some1 pray 4 mi? Can some1 tell mi wat 2 do? Where is my darling? I don dare 2 tell any1...They will say i stupid/nt hardworking...God tell mi..pls..

Hav lots of fun & laugher..

Last last sunday, i cannot go church bcoz i need 2 go my relative's house..Hav fun and joy there..last wed, it's Eliza birthday, we after prayer meeting..go her house and celebrate wif her..We give her a surprise and give her the rabbit..hee hee..It can record sound de..Hope she likes it.. Last sunday, i went church.. Gabriel's bring a poster, a Jackie Chan poster.. When going home, no one wan it.. Tim hold it and suddenly he throw it 2 me... oh..every1 went home le..so i took it home, put at my cardboard..

Watch basketball match in sch..

Hee Hee, nowadays, always stay in sch watch basketball matches.. Sometimes, our sch win..Most of the time lose lor.. hmm..the more i watch..the more i feel like playing..haha.. i don know how 2 play la..must learn first.. Now still in sch but having lession..luckily, teacher never saw i surf the net..hee hee..ok la..better sign out le..tk care! Miss ya..

My life is missing something

My life seem 2 hav something missing.. but i don know wat is missing.. i think mayb i need a elder sister...i and my sister is 6 years gap..my brain tell mi tat there is one..but i scared tat she wouldn't accept mi..How? Any1 wan 2 be my sis?

My feeling came back..

hi Hi, hmm..i going 2 sleep le but i sign in 2 update.. ya, i miss him but no use..He never miss mi.. i also started 2 like playing basketball again after i watch some matches.. i wan some1 2 teach mi more abt basketball & how 2 play.. ya, i know le..i can ask my gd 'sister'... ok..don say abt tis..i sms him, he never reply..WHY? He don wan mi 2 talk 2 him..mayb ba...

So angry!! Suckz!

So sO angry sia! I hate it..why must she force mi.. CB CB!! i don wan 2 go...hmm..i really feel like a dead person..Life suckzZ if gt her...Piano, nw i hate, bcoz she makes mi feel that way..hmm..tml, i study from 8am to 5pm but she still wan mi 2 go for her lession..i already tell her tat i tired..But she say no matter wat, must come...Why cannot i give up on piano? I feel so unhappy, cannot sleep well...i felt so uneasy.. ok la..time 2 sleep and don wake up..gd nite! tk care gUyz& Galz..

After church

Yoz yOz.. come back from church...today, we watch the video..hee hee..Is we dancing la..i saw mi le..hmm..i look so ugly when i dance..They say tat we mayb dancing again..haha..but all of us enjoy veri much..Fun dancing, jokes & many more...Know more, join us..

So long le..

hi Hi, so long never sign in le..sorry..nw in sch..so bored, so use com lor..hee hee, teacher don know..Tat day, i saw him le..waiting 4 so many years le..should i go steady wif him...hmm..ya, of course lor..i miss him so much sia...i got his hp no le..tis time never forget..ok..i need 2 go le..God bless..tk care!

Sch reopen..

Hee hee..sch reopen le..First dae, excited..but nw started 2 sianz le...hmm..later need 2 help my parents, so cannot go out wif my friendz...ya, i saw him le..but i think he already like someone le..Sad? Never mind..can wait 4 my bai ma wang zi...ha ha...ok la..Mine dance finally finish le..i really enjoy it..i still wish 2 dance..hee hee..Enjoy dancing wif the churchmates as well as dancing 4 God..so tired..i wan 2 sleep le..tk care!

Yesh! yesh!

ya..i can stay at my cousin's house...hee...hmm..nw already 10.40pm, still at computer..Oh, tml gt dancing...must remember the steps... my brain so slow, nt working sometimes...i scared tat i didn't dance well.. How? ok..i shall try my veri best...jia you! God, pls bless mi wif wisdom...Tk care hor..i need 2 rest le, after a long day...

Abt Mi..

hi Hi

Hello, how r u guYz & gaLz? So much things 4 mi 2 do... arr..Stress sia..hmm..nw is my holiday but i don feel in tat way, still so busy nowaday.. Go church on sat & sun.. Is it too often? My parents never say anything but others say...Church let mi feel relax & my friendz there makes mi feel happy.. ya..ok..sorry, i need 2 help my mom le..tK cAre lor..May god bless u!

Oh my God..

Hee hee..u know wat..My close classmates know tat i like someone in my class le..arr..my secret is out..oh oH!! Never mind..They r my close sisters in sch.. But haven tell who is it so they still guessing..hmm...slowly guess lor..my class veri little guyz, i believe u all will know one day...ok..i need 2 go my ah ma's house le..tk care galz & guyz..MuacKzZ..

siAnz siA...

Arr...siaNz la. At the office nw, playing computer..Never go church..Sorry God..bCoZ, todae bai bai ah gong...hmm..so bored tat i come 2 blog...wat 2 type? Feel like sleeping...hee hee...PIG? ya... soon..hahaha..In the office, also don know wat 2 do...We kind of staring at the computer...U wan 2 know who is we? hmmm..let me tell u...Viceroy, Jun Jie & me..hahaha...k...hmm..end here la..next time sign in again..ok? tK cArE!

Hee..My sis's birthday is today.

hI Hi, mei MeI's birthday is today...Hee hee..hmm..2nite, will we have cake 2 eat? i don think so...Anyway, Happy Birthday mEi MeI!! Stay cute & happy 4ever...Do u like the present? Mayb yes ba..Arr..tis sat hav dance again..hee hee..but need 2 go help my cousin first..Yeah! My presentation had finish..hmm..nw must start practise piano le..and doing my piano homework..k..nw..in school..mayb going out 2 buy things wif friendz..ya..later someone angry again...hmm..end here la..bye! tK caRe..

So busy nowadays...

Hi hI... ya..i busy..but still sign in 2 type 2 u.. Do project...go church...help my mom wif household.. I go church, learn dance..hmm..nt bad..but my cousin is angry..sorrie la..i really miss church ma.. I also brought my sis's birthday present le.. ya..my project hav 2 finish by today/tml...arr..still gt alot 2 do...ok..i hav no time le..bye..

24/7...My birthday..

Hmm...my birthday on 24/7...i enjoy a lots on tat day..i went 2 watch Wushu Display and stay at my cousin's house. My cousin, Diana, give mi a bear..sooo cute...thankz linGz...My darling..haha..U will think tat we r mad, right? My family brought mi 2 SWENSENS 2 celebrate my birthday...hmm..first time leh...ya..i enjoy..ok la..i end here le..next time continue..

Miss u guyz...

Yoz...so long never go church....Miss u all leh..

hmm..i sick again...hate sick...see doctor, on MC for two days...Attachment end le..but still nt happy at all..Bcoz, piano exam is on friday..Scared? Of course lor...and my birthday is coming..wat 2 do? Sianz! I don think i hav a wonderful birthday tis year..

Hee..Gabriel's birthday..

Today, it's Gabriel's birthday..i send him a msg..hmm..don worry, i never like him..i went 2 school also..do my report lor..sian sia...And i nt veri happy, bcoz my cousin is angry wif mi..hmm..must think of a way 2 make her happy..k..i miss all the church members...and my piano exam is coming..it's on 22/7..but i going 2 watch wushu on 23/7 and after tat stay at ling's house, still my birthday on 24/7...One week only, gt so much programme.. hmm..by the way, God, u must bless mi and i hav 2 pass my exam..ok..end here..tk care guyz & galz...

hmm..today, i am sick..

yoz..i am sick today leh..sian la..never go work..mayb my sis wan 2 go library and borrow books...like a bookworm...dotx!! Arr...still need 2 play piano later...i'm sick leh..should sleep ma...not play tat stupid thingy...hmm..don feel like typing le..ok!! Tk care..