Started to miss them..

Arr.. starting to miss my God-bros.. They are leaving to Aust soon after O'level end.. True.. We are not close but we are once a close cousin. So still got many memories in my heart. Miss all cousins too.. They are those who forever close.. close cousins..

Course is starting to stress me.. Lots of projects and assessments le. No holiday for me.. Sad sad..

Some words to my cousins..

Hey hey,

time fly...

Everyone grows up le..


Do u think meeting each other is easy nw? The ans is No.. Each of us hav our own things. We will be busy and busy..

Typing tis post, for my dear cousins to understand.. As...


Viceroy will be going oversea for studies. Wish u all the best for ur O'level. I only can type here bcoz he block me in MSN and we rarely see each other. Bo pian.. I started to miss him as he is my god-bro. I know u will hate me. But i still wan to wish u all the best. No matter u are my god-bro or cousin, i really hope u can treat me as ur family member.
Vickie also my god-bro. I agree tat i shouldn be both of your god-sis, as i am not close to u all. Ling should be the one and she is much more better than me.

Jun Jie, i know u stop wushu le. I don wan to ask much. Not much to tell u.. but i like to wish u all the best for ur O'level. Ling, my dearest, i know i hurt u lots.. SORRY! Very sorry! I am not a gd cousin, so please forgive me. I beg u all, pls treat me as ur cousin.. I don wan to be the odd ones.. I wan to hav fun with all of u..


I love all of u, my dear cousins..
Pls don leave me!

Photos of updates

9th Aug'07.. National Day!

How hot is my National Day? Hmm.. Can say not very. But i love my dad! He knows tat no one wan to be crazy like me.. Doing tattoos on arms. Why didn i put on face? Pai Seh la...



So my father being so gd... He went to put it on face and went crazy with me.. Thanks pa pa..

nothing much to smile

There is a smile tat worth it. But where is the smile? I'm missing tat smile. I wan it back! Who can give me?

No more in life.


Part of my life is missing.



Even nw i smile at u, u will never see the best smile from me. Hurt is not the point but is you tat must think of wat u done. You hav never think why friends don need u. And your thinking is only till tat point.

Photos on 21/7/07

My birthday celebration

My birthday is on 24 July.


My friends celebrated for me on 21 July. It's a surprise day with a surprise cake and a surprise gifts. They really use lots of effort to help me celebrate. Thanks, my dear friends.. I will upload the photos for u all to see.


The actual day of my birthday, i went work. Didn take off bcoz no program mah.. Haha.. My childcare teachers did brought me some vouchers as my present. They even brought a mini cake and the children sang for me. During dinner, my dad asked us to Pu Tian Restaurant to eat as a celebration for my birthday.

By the way, thanks to all who wished me. There are some special and cute ones..like from my aunties & uncle, Rachel, Yan Hui, Cherie, Tim, Eliza, Cheris, Sophia, Gabriel, Angeline, Hwa ee, Lay Yong, Hui Ling, Victor kor, Vickie kor, etc..

Thanks for the presents tat u all gave me.. I love them! I love u too!

Father's side ah ma's b'day dinner.

Just came back from the restaurant.. Bored.. Wanting to go out but only some is ok wif it. Many were tired. Never mind. Next time bah or mayb next few years then hav the chance.
By the way, the dinner didn fill my stomach bcoz when people stop eating, i stop too.. Plus hurting my mood. So didn eat enough. Reach home, start eating the buns tat should be for tml breakfast. Sorry.. Still hungry.

I think tonight is not a wonderful dinner by looking around.. Some tired, some keeps talking.. some alone.. Hmm.. but for me, .... totally spoilt my mood.. BUT... Being in that mood, i went around to take photos. I didn take any photo from my table bcoz it's only left with three gals..and 1 guy. See? No meaning in taking them.. Don feel like forcing them too.. So went on taking other tables. I should say, the most enjoyable table is from all the cousins. But sadly to say, i'm never ever involve in tat table b4.. Usually, always the guys. Funny right? All cousins cannot sit together and hav fun. Ok! Started to sing and blow cake.. My camera went batt low. Wat is the problem sia?


The night didn end meaningless.. One of the big kor kor came and talk to me. He is attending New Creation Church. He told me lots of things that really help me to bring back my mood. Not feeling bored and lonely nw. Cool~

Fatherly love (Feeding dessert)





















Two cuties (Twist)

After so long...

After so long of not blogging.. Hmm.. Not much changes from me. Still the person tat is dislike by someone. Didn show out the hate but always unhappy abt me.. Wat wrong with me? Is it my wrong? Did i not care abt u? Questions & questions are all in my mind.. How can i make u happy?
I mayb not good in making someone smile but i trying.. Why can't u give me chance or guide me?





I'm losing...



I'm tired...




I'm giving up soon







When will you be there for me?






I hoping to be with you always!

Confirm of my work in Childcare

My work have changed to full-time childcare asst. teacher.. Yeah.. Today is my last day working part-time.. And will be stop working at my aunty place soon.. She is still so busy and i feel bad tat i didn help her much..


Don really know wat to say.. I really wan to thank a lots of people and thank God tat he had put tis people in my life.


Tim is leaving the ministy but he is always kept in our heart. He had done a lots of things tat helped me and many others.. I would like to thank Tim behalf of the youths.

Updates on MRT trip with the children.

Hey hey.. I really enjoyed in my childcare job.. The teachers and aunties there are very good to me.. But i don really like Miss Koh.. She is choosy. Small problem also make till big problem.. Anyway, i'm ok wif it.. I really love kids no matter they sings, laugh or sleep. They are all cute and clever kids.

Today, the teachers brought all the children to take MRT. Wow... This is my first outing with all those children. We brought them to Sun Plaza and to eat at Macdonald.. I found out tat Eric (One of the kids) scared of the Macdonald's man.. Hahaha.. After eating, went to take MRT back to Bishan. On the way back in the train, our cute little Mohammed Khair almost felt asleep.. A lots of people laughed at his looks on tiredness. We can't stop laughing too. Indeed, it's really a tired day.




I'm still working at my aunty place.. i wouldn leave bcoz i still need the money to pay my bills and shopping too. Mayb will leave when the childcare give me a confirm answer. Money is getting little and little.. Spent a lots le..

Photo taken on 19 May'07

Celebrated Jia Xin's birthday at Kbox & went for steamboat for dinner...

A day where the answer is out.. Don worry! I wouldn give up so early.. BUT.. Pls don let me wait too long.. The songs will forever kept in my heart till the owner come and collect. Sound weird.. But never mind.

Photos taken on 13 May'07

Photo of us

I love ya!

Sick for four days le

Arr.. have been sick for four days le.. Will it recover? LOrd heal me!


Wat happen? The communication between us have break down? Heart is also not link together.. Am i losing u soon?


My job also came to a choice.. Have to give up one of it..

I feel useless

I don know why sometimes i feel tat i'm useless.. I don know how to let diana happy.. Don know how to teach my youths abt God's word.. Don know how to help those kids who need my help.. I even don know wat am i choosing? Wat wrong wif me?

I feel tired of living in a world tat everyone is doing their own things. Didn care abt each other feeling. Only think so themselves. When i need a hug, also don have.. i know tat someone is trying but haven reach my turn. That person hav been touching my heart.. Even, when i need a shoulder, no one can lend me.

I need more oxygen. I having difficulty in breathing. Really don feel like doing anything.






Can someone just lend a shoulder for me?
Can someone just give me a big hug?

Busy & tired Sat..

Went for Methodist Walk at 7.30am... Got to wake up at 5am, abt 6.30am, uncle Victor fetched me.. But didn sleep well so had a bit headache. Reached there, waiting to start the walk.. When the horn sounds, everyone started the walk.. We decided to walk for 2km but in the end, we walked for 4km.. Wow.. After the walk, went to Pastor Gabriel Liew's house for a quick breakfast & lunch. Nice foods.. Thankz Pastor Liew.. We didn stay long, just for 30 mins.. after tat we all went home for rest. Many of us rushed home as we got to go church in the afternoon. I went home, sleep for half an hour, woke up for a bath and went to church for the easter outreach.



Reached church at 1pm.. Didn expect so late.. Actually should reach at 12.30pm. Never mind.. Went to help the youths, Kar Keat suddenly walked forward, asked me: "Hi Sin ying, are you ok? Need a rest first? U better rest first bcoz we still need u later." I answered: "Hi Kar Keat, oh.. i'm alright. Did went home for a rest." See caring people are alwayz there.. After Kar Keat asked, Gabriel asked me again.. Haha.. Mayb my face can tell tat i'm tired or mayb they know i went for the walk.

Suddenly, diana called.. She wan to go kbox. i went to meet her to pass her the card and in the meanwhile, went MRT fetch my friends. Brought Jia Xin & Yan Hui to the outreach. i did invite Diana too, but she don wan.. i can see God is working on her life bcoz she is changing to b better person. Ok.. still got Doris who still not reach.. i brought my friends to church first then turn back to the MRT to fetch Doris. The programme started with wonderful foods. We got to use the money to buy it.. haha.. Sound interesting? Is true.. We had lots of fun. No matter in games or the speaker, everyone is joining in it. God had the power to change someone.. Jia Xin wasn't in gd mood bcoz of Rocket but after tis outreach, she was smiling all the way. The outreach ended wif songs and God blessing.


To God Be The Glory.

Update on myself

Blog blog blog... How people can blog so much things? i only blog when i hav time or something to tell people. Where do i hav time to blog everyday? So i think that blog is just a diary. Agree? Mayb diana don't.. Never mind.. i learning to control my tank. A tank of emotion. Being a christian hav to control the temper, cannot fight or scold people. This is wat God put us to test. It's not easy to pass this but do pray for wisdom and must remember God put u to test, is bcoz He believe u can do it.


Ok.. i should update my job with u all.. i currently working at a childcare centre at bishan and after that will go my aunty office to work.. So tired everyday.

In the job of a childcare asst. I work from 8.30am to 2pm. I learn a lots of things. Taking care of kids from the age of 18 mths to abt 3 years old.. So.. i learn to change their diapers. It's really a fun job.

I love 10th March 2007.

Hi.. Hello.. I cannot don tell u tat i really love the bbq. The story is..... On 10th March 2007, Diana & i organise a bbq. We invited our friends and two unknown(Means friend's friend). Altogether abt 12 people. The starting of bbq, must start fire first.. Rocket is kind 2 help in starting fire, not like Alan..haha.. and while he doing the fire, Diana & me wash the place so tat it is clean. After all is ready, we had our bbq foods being serve by Rocket & Alan. None of the gals willing 2 cook the foods, let the guys do.. heehee.. We chat and eat at the same time. Really had a fun time together.

As Lay Yong was there too, i left my sit and went to sit beside her. She look better than the day i brought her 2 my church. I went 2 talk 2 her... and i told her abt God & Jesus. When i talking 2 her, my friends were curious on wat i am telling her. I didn say out eventhough i feel like.. I promised her tat i wouldn say out wat we are talking abt. After encouage and telling her, i went back 2 my group of friends. Suddenly, i heard them saying tat Lay Yong's eyes got tears. I was thinking if the Lord touches her heart..

At abt 9.30pm, my friends went home le. That was the time when the rest of us had laughter and tears of joy.. Only left Rocket, Danson, Yee Sheen, Grace, Diana & me.. only left the six of us enjoying the last part of the bbq. By the way, i really thank all of u tat make tis bbq a wonderful memories.

Lesser than last year

Yea yea.. Counted my hong bao money.. Cool.. Got abt a total of $700..but is lesser than last year.. Feel like spending le, hands also itch 2 buy things.. Hmm.. Must control myself..

Last Sunday got commitee meeting but i never go.. Was excused from aunty sally. Miss a lots of the update. So sorry.. Bo pian! Need to go Suntec 4 the career fair. By the way, so happy tat my uncle and aunty come 2 my church on Sunday.. Wow.. God, are u working on them? Or mayb they come bcoz of fetching me 2 Suntec.. It's ok.. i will change 2 be more like Jesus, be more forgiving and not asking too much. Ok.. back 2 suntec.. Went 2 listen 2 some talk.. After walking 4 a while, met Wilson again at Suntec.. He also went 4 the career fair. Anyway, i can see tat he still looking forward 2 my reply. Didn't talk 2 him much for abt a month le.. And didn't see him for last two weeks but he came back again.. Look trouble and keep things in his heart. Aunty sally asked me but i don know.. Should i follow up wif him? Seem that he need 2 tell someone of his trust.

I'm didn't follow up wif my dear youths..not even my lambs in my care.. Valerie & Yvonne, so sorry! Hope i can find time for u all.. Forgive me from not doing my job..


Dearest God, pls don rain on tis Sat as i hav a BBQ.. Lord, bless the BBQ, and nothing will happen 2 any of us.. Thankz! AMEN!

Why do i feel so tired?

Waiting for the Lunar New Year to pass.. Wanting to count my hong bao money.. Time to be busy again. Tired and sleepy.. Feel like sleeping through my whole life. Starting to be lazy.. Hmm.. Do i really care abt my future? Can i choose to be a guy? Mayb some of u know tat i look tomboy.. Being a guy is much better than being a girl.. I feel tired all the time.. Tired of choosing my life, tired of saying the meaning of love.. Saying to this brother of mine, yet he didn understand.. Diana may know who i am saying.. Tim mayb reading and guessing at the same time.

I don think i can be a gd secretary to the commitee.. Still nw i haven type finish the minutes of meeting and this coming Sunday is the meeting.. Wat happen to me? Should i tell aunty sally to find another person to do.. I not gd in writing and reading.. Oh.. i think Diana is going to ask me quit again.. By saying quiting is easy but the doing is hard, And i wouldn quit bcoz my family, relatives, cousins and etc.. I want them to accept Jesus.. So if those who want me 2 quit, know what to do.. Hee hee.. God is waiting 4 your heart 2 open..

CNY is coming.. but i don excited..

Time fly fast as it is coming 2 Chinese New Year.. Let me wish u all nw bcoz i don hav time 2 go online. And i only blog when i really feel like..

Happy Chinese New Year! Blessed New Year! Wonderful New Year!

Enjoy taking the hong bao as we wish each other wif blessing.. hee hee..


I don feel the excited even it's coming to Chinese New Year.. So tired and sleepy tis week.. Want to go out wif friends but not much money to spend. So thinking of doing something else tat is much cheaper to do.. Hmm.. luckily, i brought my new year clothes le.. I spent almost $250 for all the new year stuffs..

I know tat many of u are praying for my family.. Thanks guyz.. My family hav promise to go when Lim Kok Heng ( My grandpa's bro ), come my church and my aunty promise to join my church.. God, continue to let ur love touch my dearest family, relatives, cousins, friends.. And protect Lay yong wif ur healing hands. I looking forward to see them seeking tis gift tat U hav given..

Update of blogskin

How is my blogskin? Is it nice.. Do give some comments.. Hope u all who alwayz come 2 know my life like it. Thankz..


Darren, jia you! Dance and sing ur very best tis Sunday..
i am a bad example... Don follow..

Waiting.. Waiting..

Waiting is a difficult job.. No choice but pray.. OK! Let's me update myself.. OYF kick off at Eliza's house at last Friday. Last Sat, some youths went 4 fusion at Suntec. I did learn some knowledge from the speakers.. After that, meet diana & yee sheen, went VIVO City 2 find the rest of the youths.. Had a gd dinner and enjoying playing pool.. hee hee.. i like playing pool nw.. Hmm.. For last Sunday, YYF kick off.. As i'm a first time cell leader, i still hav the nervous in my heart.. Continue praying as i stepping out of the boat towards Jesus..

Tis week, Sunday, is my church 113th anniversary.. All are welcome, is just a call.. So do call me if u wan 2 come.. Service start at 10am..

Tired.. Busy... True..

Actually i didn think of blogging today as i really don know wat 2 blog.. Diana Yap Chin Ling..Hmm nice name.. LAmE hor.. Do u know i love u.. Hahaha.. Ok! Serious.. hee hee..

Thankz Sophia 4 the diary.. i'm using it nw.. Planning my week and all kinds of stuff.. Planning all the meetings and Youths fellowship.. Yeah! The Lord is using me 2 be a cell leader.. Guyz & Galz, do continue 2 pray 4 me as i stepping out of the boat.. Also pray 4 my faith in the Lord.. I also wan 2 thank my dear lao gong (Tim) as he is alwayz praying 4 me.. Bringing me back from church every week..

Looking forward 2 Friday/Saturday/Sunday as we will hav a wonderful time 2gether.. Oh.. do pray tat day no rain.. Raining days are spoiling my mood..

Pictures of my work