Waiting.. Waiting..

Waiting is a difficult job.. No choice but pray.. OK! Let's me update myself.. OYF kick off at Eliza's house at last Friday. Last Sat, some youths went 4 fusion at Suntec. I did learn some knowledge from the speakers.. After that, meet diana & yee sheen, went VIVO City 2 find the rest of the youths.. Had a gd dinner and enjoying playing pool.. hee hee.. i like playing pool nw.. Hmm.. For last Sunday, YYF kick off.. As i'm a first time cell leader, i still hav the nervous in my heart.. Continue praying as i stepping out of the boat towards Jesus..

Tis week, Sunday, is my church 113th anniversary.. All are welcome, is just a call.. So do call me if u wan 2 come.. Service start at 10am..

Tired.. Busy... True..

Actually i didn think of blogging today as i really don know wat 2 blog.. Diana Yap Chin Ling..Hmm nice name.. LAmE hor.. Do u know i love u.. Hahaha.. Ok! Serious.. hee hee..

Thankz Sophia 4 the diary.. i'm using it nw.. Planning my week and all kinds of stuff.. Planning all the meetings and Youths fellowship.. Yeah! The Lord is using me 2 be a cell leader.. Guyz & Galz, do continue 2 pray 4 me as i stepping out of the boat.. Also pray 4 my faith in the Lord.. I also wan 2 thank my dear lao gong (Tim) as he is alwayz praying 4 me.. Bringing me back from church every week..

Looking forward 2 Friday/Saturday/Sunday as we will hav a wonderful time 2gether.. Oh.. do pray tat day no rain.. Raining days are spoiling my mood..

Pictures of my work

Being a cousin in a family

I know you all don like me 2 be a christian. I know tat all of you already didn wan me as a cousin. Even my sister is better than me.. right? As i say, you all don know wat is the meaning of christian and stop saying tat i have change. Ya ya.. I changed! I can agree wif you. I change becoz I love God more than wat i am the last time. You want me 2 quit church? I can tell you tat it's not going 2 happen. You said tat ur friends who are christian, only go church once/two times in a week. Ok! I goes church a lots of times becoz I want 2 be closer 2 God and I am already a committee member of the youths ministry so i need 2 go.. And i can see tat you all are trying 2 hide all the secret, even the eyes are preventing from me. When playing games, you all enjoy playing wif my sis, but when i join in then u all give me a sianz sianx look.. i can see de lor.. Sometimes, u all make fun of me, i didn get angry and i even allow you 2 continue becoz i just want the laughter and happiness from u all.. I just want 2 see a simple smile 2 prove tat i'm still can let u be happy. Hmm.. Since i was born till nw, i still let you all joke abt me.

I can say tat i still treat u all as my close best cousins but i know you didn treat me in tat way le.. Is ok! I wouldn angry wif you..

Merry Christmas Comment Graphics

Can i hav a better life?

Arr.. i don like 2 make choices.. Choices give me lots of headache.. Every time when i goes out wif friends, i will feel the joy but nw.. Isn't happy or excited.. The feeling is like my heart having a hole.. Mayb bcoz everything in my life is in a mess.. Why mess? Every1 ask me 2 go out on the same day.. Who should i go out wif?

Example: Karen ask me 2 go 4 movie, but in the same day, Pooh ask me 2 go K-Box.. Wat? Who shall i choose? Headache sia..
If i choose Karen then Pooh will angry.. But if i choose Pooh then Karen will say tat i alwayz never care.. Why can't my life be easier? Both are my friends. Karen can be friend wif Pooh and we all can 2gether go out.. But one of them don wan bcoz she only wan me.

I really hav enough of all tis.. i still think tat only God is gd 2 me.. And in my heart no one can replace God.

Non-christian family

Still hoping tat tis Dec can don work.. Got too much programs.. Let me tell u some main ones.. Sorry, not in order..

1. Retreat camp- 19 dec to 21 dec
2. Christmas party wif friendz- 22 dec
3. CCIS- 24 dec
4. Outing- 16 dec
5. Tim's friend- 27 dec
6. Welcome Party- 30 dec

Those who wan 2 go out wif me.. Sure! Just tell me so i can plan my things.. Or else, join my program so tat i don need 2 headache again.. True.. Being a only christian in my family is not easy.. Really hope tat they know God, His love, etc.. Oh.. saying abt tis, i thinking of diana.. She tag on my blog but don dare 2 go my church 2 tell.. She is also once a children of God but nw.. Mayb not..surely not.. But never mind.. i can continue 2 pray 4 u..

JOB..JoB.. Job..

Can i don work on tis December.. really don feel like.. i want 2 join my church programs and my friends birthday party.. I told my parents but in the end is scolding and nagging from them.. My mom still say tat wan 2 tell aunty sally tat bcoz of church i become lazy.. Ya.. if i don work, no money 2 spent. My parents went 2 tell my aunties and cousins, so nw every1 ask me 2 forget abt church and better choice is go church when i am free.. and i am childish.. Wat? Can u believe i don go church 4 one month and i say tat i love God.. No! No! i really can't stand wat my parents do.. I love GOD and his house ( Church ).. No matter wat, i wouldn leave church and my dear youths bcoz i still got a lot of things 2 learn from them.. By the way, only the LOrd can heal my heart.

Thankz 4 all the prayer

Hi.. thank God tat my uncle came home le.. He can go back 2 work le..

Eliza, jia you in ur coming exam.. Don worry, the lord will be wif u through all ur studying.. u are remembered in my prayer..

A verse 4 all of u:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Don know wat 2 type..

My aunty just came out of the hospital but my ah gu(Mum's bro) went 4 operation and stay at East Shore Hospital nw.. Today, i went 2 visit him wif my mummy.. He still the way he is, having a smile on the face no matter wat happen.. That really brighten me.. We didn stay at the hospital too long.. Reached home, recieved a call from one of my relatives.. My mum answered the phone and heard tat my relative(Christian) went 2 hospital last nite bcoz of a sudden heart attack.. Nw still in ICU at Changi General Hospital.. In a week, total of three people tat are close 2 us went 2 hospital.. Lord, heal them..

Thankz God..

Wow.. God is so gd... He is SO GOOD 2 me.. Why? Hmmm.. i saw Angeline today wif her parents at the MRT.. Of course, i went up & say hi.. but seem tat she & her parents are going 4 dinner soon, so i didn talk much 2 her.. Anyway.. Thankz God.. Finally, i can see her than i keep on thinking or guessing abt her life.. Thankz God..

A filming at Carpark..

Sorry! I never go 2 prayer meeting last nite. I got 2 help diana in her project. We meet at 6pm. Abt 6.30pm, we reach Toa Payoh, planning 2 start our project but we found out that we still need glass wine 4 the filming. After we bought it, we went 2 Sam's house. Didn't expect tat the time already 7.30pm.. They ask me change the clothes that suit the story. At first, i don know wat is my role but after i know.. I was shocked, bcoz i need 2 role play having candlelight dinner wif a guy at the carpark. Hmm.. i was 2 put makeup and dress so formal. In my heart, never mind, since i willing 2 help diana in her project.

Ok.. i go straight 2 the important/funny things that happened. Firstly, i need 2 act that i'm his galfriend so..all the holding of hands and worse of all..there is a kissing role. Don worry, it's just acting, not real. But we still burst out of laughter. After all the fliming, the time was already almost 12am.. Wow, i can understand how tired 2 be an actor/actress. It's time 2 eat some food ( we didn't eat dinner). One of the team-mate sitted at a hole 2 enjoy his food. His face and action showed us tat he was too hungry 2 care abt the place.

Reached home around 12.30am.. In that minute of thinking, i don wan 2 work the next day as i'm sure i hav not enough of sleep.. But in the end, i still went 2 work.

Yeah!!

God is good all the time.. Yeah, it's true.. He give me friendz, a wonderful family, cousins, my loving church youths.. Wow.. He is greater than wat we can think..

Ah..ya.. i got a new computer le.. Thankz Tim! Thankz 4 all the energy 4 doing tis computer.. Those tat dun know, we fix a new computer from 7pm to 1am.. Poor Tim, hav 2 come 2 my house on the next day 2 continue..

Got 2 update u all abt my work. Still got two weeks 2 take my pay(looking forward 2 the day). My work is like facing the computer 2 whole day by checking and editing the engineer project. Tis job is a intro by my cousin.. Since i accept le tis job so i will try my best 2 learn something in the company. At first i didn't wan tis job bcoz i don wan 2 hav fight wif him.. His mom is my godma..ya, i agree.. i look like a spy tat send by his mom. But i not tat type of person.. i just wan 2 be a gd god-sis or cousin but he keep thinking tat i wan 2 spy on him.. Viceroy, if u really don feel like seeing me working wif u then u tell me.. i don like 2 see people upset bcoz of me, i only wan a smile in ur face.. i really miss the time, when all the cousins are 2gether having fun & laughter.. Never mind, tat the past, it wouldn't be the present or future.. We are just like normal friend, not close anymore.

Today, i went 2 the career fair in ITE College East.. Hmm.. also meet some of my friends and we hav lunch 2gether.. Really miss the time when i still studying.. Ok.. end 4 today.. need a nap nw.. Still hav 2 help diana in her project later..

Computer spoilt

Arr.. Starting of a day wif a scolding from mummy.. Hmm.. don feel like going out leh, except church bcoz in church i can feel better.. God's love is the only one tat can heal my heart..

Oh .. forgotten 2 tell u all tat my computer is spoilt.. so worse nw.. cannot go online often.. sianz.. i got 2 save money nw.. Really hav 2 save.. Bcoz i need 2 pay 4 my own computer..

Sick..becoz of the haze..

Update of me...

On 3rd of October, is a Tuesday. I suddenly had block nose & sore thoat. I know tat I going 2 be sick.. After work, I went home 2 have my medicine. Till Thursday, it still didn't get well. Arr.. all becoz of the haze..

By the way, Wednesday, i didn't go prayer meeting bcoz of my health.. I know tat i got duty 4 the OHP.. Sorry, i cannot come..

Ok..back 2 Thursday.. Ya.. Finally, i went 2 see doctor.. The doctor didn't give me MC so next day i still have 2 work.. Hmm.. By nw, i still coughing.. and my voice change.. i nw sound like a man..hee hee.. Thank God, i didn't have sore thoat le..

Sat.. i don think i going church.. i better stay at home & rest.. Hope tat i can recover soon.. I will be back, my dear youths..

Tim, thankz 4 ur sms.. Care 4 all of us all the time.. Pray 4 all of us..

Only Sat & Sun

Sorry..never update often.. Only Sat/ Sun can update.. sianz.. Keep on feeling tired..

Hope 2 go shopping later.. Feel like buying clothes 4 myself.. Don know wat 2 do nw..mayb meeting my sec friends later..

Nothing 2 say le.. Got 2 go..Bye!

Much better after all..

Thankz every1.. All ur concern and love.. It really touch my heart.. If u all are not there esp my dearest youths, i mayb fall on the ground le.. Thankz God 4 sending all tis youths 2 my life.. They brighten my life.. No one may understand the feeling but i do.. Is just like when u are in the forest with fire burning and some1 came 2 save u out and cheer u.. U may scared till u can't talk but tis person pray 4 u..And even sit beside u till u are back 2 ur normal self..

Thankz Eliza 4 the sms tat let me know Lord is still beside me and the prayers.
Thanks Tim 4 the prayers and care 4 me.
Thankss all the youths 4 praying 4 me, i can feel the sisters and brothers love from all of u.
Thankzz Diana 4 2gether cried wif me in Long John Silver.

Do remember 2 pray 4 diana too bcoz she mayb having 心里问题.. She afraid of a lots of things suddenly.. And mayb need 2 see doctor if it is serious..

Ok.. Should end here le.. i not going church tml bcoz i meeting diana and her friendz.. Sorry!
i LovE u All..

Family problem..

Family means Father And Mother I Love You.. But in my family, love has started 2 find funny.. Hmm..mayb bcoz my father going 2 lose his company anytime.. He already haven take salary 4 more than two months.. Nw he is so worry tat we hav no food/money. i wan 2 help but don know wat 2 do.. Arr..Yesterday, at my father's office, get scolding 4 going out wif friends.. Wat their problem? i working so cannot go out wif my friends so i choose 2 go out wif them yesterday. Since i so long never go out 4 a walk, talk wif them on the way & hav fun & laughter.. Do u believe i usually go bugis alone.. ya..i not mature enough..i don know how 2 think 4 my family & my future.. So? Everything they say abt me, i also cannot fight 4 my rights.. Only way, keep in my heart..(crying) Nw, i hav 2 pay my family water & electrical bills.. My hp bill also hav 2 ownself pay le.. They also don know tat every night b4 i sleep, i cried.. Ok la.. don wan 2 say le..

Dance is fun..

Working at my aunty office is still ok.. but why must i find a job tat my mom likes... She keeps on asking me 2 find a job tat not related 2 my family members..

Ok.. tis sunday, my mom said tat she coming 2 my church.. cool sia.. finally tis day hav come.. But i must try 2 remember the steps in the dance.. Ya.. i will be dancing at my church on tis sun.. At first is 8 people are dancing but in the end only left 6 people.. Hmm.. Worried.. i still not very sure abt the steps for flags tat i just learned yesterday.. oh.. i scared i forget.. Worse.. i stand at the front..

I tell myself tat i must do it and remember every steps but still not really.. When the music start, i get nervous.. LOrd, bless me..Lord, guide me.. I lift it to your hands..

No time..so busy..

Li Ting and Wan Chan Birthday is today.. Morning wake up and get scolding from mum..sianz.. Later, still got dance practice in church..hmm..i still worry i cannot remember the steps..

I am so busy..but don know busy abt wat...