A filming at Carpark..

Sorry! I never go 2 prayer meeting last nite. I got 2 help diana in her project. We meet at 6pm. Abt 6.30pm, we reach Toa Payoh, planning 2 start our project but we found out that we still need glass wine 4 the filming. After we bought it, we went 2 Sam's house. Didn't expect tat the time already 7.30pm.. They ask me change the clothes that suit the story. At first, i don know wat is my role but after i know.. I was shocked, bcoz i need 2 role play having candlelight dinner wif a guy at the carpark. Hmm.. i was 2 put makeup and dress so formal. In my heart, never mind, since i willing 2 help diana in her project.

Ok.. i go straight 2 the important/funny things that happened. Firstly, i need 2 act that i'm his galfriend so..all the holding of hands and worse of all..there is a kissing role. Don worry, it's just acting, not real. But we still burst out of laughter. After all the fliming, the time was already almost 12am.. Wow, i can understand how tired 2 be an actor/actress. It's time 2 eat some food ( we didn't eat dinner). One of the team-mate sitted at a hole 2 enjoy his food. His face and action showed us tat he was too hungry 2 care abt the place.

Reached home around 12.30am.. In that minute of thinking, i don wan 2 work the next day as i'm sure i hav not enough of sleep.. But in the end, i still went 2 work.

Yeah!!

God is good all the time.. Yeah, it's true.. He give me friendz, a wonderful family, cousins, my loving church youths.. Wow.. He is greater than wat we can think..

Ah..ya.. i got a new computer le.. Thankz Tim! Thankz 4 all the energy 4 doing tis computer.. Those tat dun know, we fix a new computer from 7pm to 1am.. Poor Tim, hav 2 come 2 my house on the next day 2 continue..

Got 2 update u all abt my work. Still got two weeks 2 take my pay(looking forward 2 the day). My work is like facing the computer 2 whole day by checking and editing the engineer project. Tis job is a intro by my cousin.. Since i accept le tis job so i will try my best 2 learn something in the company. At first i didn't wan tis job bcoz i don wan 2 hav fight wif him.. His mom is my godma..ya, i agree.. i look like a spy tat send by his mom. But i not tat type of person.. i just wan 2 be a gd god-sis or cousin but he keep thinking tat i wan 2 spy on him.. Viceroy, if u really don feel like seeing me working wif u then u tell me.. i don like 2 see people upset bcoz of me, i only wan a smile in ur face.. i really miss the time, when all the cousins are 2gether having fun & laughter.. Never mind, tat the past, it wouldn't be the present or future.. We are just like normal friend, not close anymore.

Today, i went 2 the career fair in ITE College East.. Hmm.. also meet some of my friends and we hav lunch 2gether.. Really miss the time when i still studying.. Ok.. end 4 today.. need a nap nw.. Still hav 2 help diana in her project later..

Computer spoilt

Arr.. Starting of a day wif a scolding from mummy.. Hmm.. don feel like going out leh, except church bcoz in church i can feel better.. God's love is the only one tat can heal my heart..

Oh .. forgotten 2 tell u all tat my computer is spoilt.. so worse nw.. cannot go online often.. sianz.. i got 2 save money nw.. Really hav 2 save.. Bcoz i need 2 pay 4 my own computer..

Sick..becoz of the haze..

Update of me...

On 3rd of October, is a Tuesday. I suddenly had block nose & sore thoat. I know tat I going 2 be sick.. After work, I went home 2 have my medicine. Till Thursday, it still didn't get well. Arr.. all becoz of the haze..

By the way, Wednesday, i didn't go prayer meeting bcoz of my health.. I know tat i got duty 4 the OHP.. Sorry, i cannot come..

Ok..back 2 Thursday.. Ya.. Finally, i went 2 see doctor.. The doctor didn't give me MC so next day i still have 2 work.. Hmm.. By nw, i still coughing.. and my voice change.. i nw sound like a man..hee hee.. Thank God, i didn't have sore thoat le..

Sat.. i don think i going church.. i better stay at home & rest.. Hope tat i can recover soon.. I will be back, my dear youths..

Tim, thankz 4 ur sms.. Care 4 all of us all the time.. Pray 4 all of us..

Only Sat & Sun

Sorry..never update often.. Only Sat/ Sun can update.. sianz.. Keep on feeling tired..

Hope 2 go shopping later.. Feel like buying clothes 4 myself.. Don know wat 2 do nw..mayb meeting my sec friends later..

Nothing 2 say le.. Got 2 go..Bye!

Much better after all..

Thankz every1.. All ur concern and love.. It really touch my heart.. If u all are not there esp my dearest youths, i mayb fall on the ground le.. Thankz God 4 sending all tis youths 2 my life.. They brighten my life.. No one may understand the feeling but i do.. Is just like when u are in the forest with fire burning and some1 came 2 save u out and cheer u.. U may scared till u can't talk but tis person pray 4 u..And even sit beside u till u are back 2 ur normal self..

Thankz Eliza 4 the sms tat let me know Lord is still beside me and the prayers.
Thanks Tim 4 the prayers and care 4 me.
Thankss all the youths 4 praying 4 me, i can feel the sisters and brothers love from all of u.
Thankzz Diana 4 2gether cried wif me in Long John Silver.

Do remember 2 pray 4 diana too bcoz she mayb having 心里问题.. She afraid of a lots of things suddenly.. And mayb need 2 see doctor if it is serious..

Ok.. Should end here le.. i not going church tml bcoz i meeting diana and her friendz.. Sorry!
i LovE u All..

Family problem..

Family means Father And Mother I Love You.. But in my family, love has started 2 find funny.. Hmm..mayb bcoz my father going 2 lose his company anytime.. He already haven take salary 4 more than two months.. Nw he is so worry tat we hav no food/money. i wan 2 help but don know wat 2 do.. Arr..Yesterday, at my father's office, get scolding 4 going out wif friends.. Wat their problem? i working so cannot go out wif my friends so i choose 2 go out wif them yesterday. Since i so long never go out 4 a walk, talk wif them on the way & hav fun & laughter.. Do u believe i usually go bugis alone.. ya..i not mature enough..i don know how 2 think 4 my family & my future.. So? Everything they say abt me, i also cannot fight 4 my rights.. Only way, keep in my heart..(crying) Nw, i hav 2 pay my family water & electrical bills.. My hp bill also hav 2 ownself pay le.. They also don know tat every night b4 i sleep, i cried.. Ok la.. don wan 2 say le..

Dance is fun..

Working at my aunty office is still ok.. but why must i find a job tat my mom likes... She keeps on asking me 2 find a job tat not related 2 my family members..

Ok.. tis sunday, my mom said tat she coming 2 my church.. cool sia.. finally tis day hav come.. But i must try 2 remember the steps in the dance.. Ya.. i will be dancing at my church on tis sun.. At first is 8 people are dancing but in the end only left 6 people.. Hmm.. Worried.. i still not very sure abt the steps for flags tat i just learned yesterday.. oh.. i scared i forget.. Worse.. i stand at the front..

I tell myself tat i must do it and remember every steps but still not really.. When the music start, i get nervous.. LOrd, bless me..Lord, guide me.. I lift it to your hands..

No time..so busy..

Li Ting and Wan Chan Birthday is today.. Morning wake up and get scolding from mum..sianz.. Later, still got dance practice in church..hmm..i still worry i cannot remember the steps..

I am so busy..but don know busy abt wat...

Changing job soon

Oh.. i wan 2 thankz those tat gave me presents and those tat celebrated wif me.. Sorry! So late then say.. By the way, hmm.. 18 le.. Must change my thinking 2 a young adult.. And most important, must grow in the Lord..

Soon, i will b changing my job.. Every1 asked me 2 change job bcoz of the pay.. Will update again wif u all..

Lost a lots of things..

So long never blog.. Don know why i apply tis blog.. But nw i think is bcoz i can say out my happy and sad moments here.. Since, no one willing 2 be my hearing ears.. My family also don wan 2 hear me say...

I nt happy today bcoz they only know 2 say my weak points..
Example:
1) My family members told others people tat i nt clever..

2) My aunty said tat i don know how 2 think 4 the future..

3) My relatives said tat i am childish..

Why must they say tis.. Hurt me.. Worst is they say behind my back..

In my mind..

Instructions:Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.
Don't read the questions before you write and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1. Yee Sheen
2. Wen Shan
3. Viceroy
4. Eliza
5. Desmond
6. Sophia
7. Cheris
8. Constance
9. Angeline
10. See Ying
11. Gabriel
12. Inn Zheng
13. Diana
14. Vickie
15. Rui Xian
16. Derrick
17. Jia Xin
18. Cherie
19. Yan Hui
20. Wilson

1. How did you meet #14?
Ans: Hmm..my cousin but nw my God bro.

2. What would you do if you had never met #1?
Ans: Will b sad bah..She is a nice gal.

3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
Ans: Angeline & Wilson?..i don think she will choose him..

4. Would #6 & #17 make a good couple?
Ans: Both r galz..not really can b couple..But both of them know Jasper..

5. Describe #3.
Ans: Hee..Nice, veri man, lovable, cute, like 2 see him smile..taller than mi..

6. Do you think #8 is attractive?
Ans: Ya..by guys..She is pretty and cute lor..

7. Tell me something about #7.
Ans: Love 2 eat.. Love yellow colour.. Hate cockroach..

8. Do you know anything about #12's family?
Ans: He is the only son..His father alwayz fetch him 2 church..

9. What's #8's favourite?
Ans: Should ask mi wat #8 hate..i think she like pink bah..

10. What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
Ans: Hmm..i will b telling him tat u r like my kor..

11. What language does #15 speak?
Ans: Chinese.. Sometimes mixed too..

12. Who is #9 going out with?
Ans: Dun know..But i know she love 2 go out wif Eliza & Constance.

13. How old is #16 now?
Ans: Same as me.. 18 tis year..

14. When was the last time you talked to #13?
Ans: Yesterday..

15. Who's #2's favourite singer?
Ans: Huh? Don know leh! English songs..

16. Would you date #4?
Ans: If i am a guy, of course yes..

17. Would you date #7?
Ans: Hmm..ya..she is a nice gal.

18. Is #15 single?
Ans: Ya.. Mayb nw hav stead but never tell me..

19. What is #10's last name?
Ans: Haha..how can i don know my sis name..hee..

20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19?
Ans: She is my best friend. She has a sweet smile..

21. What schools did #3 go to?
Ans: Tao Nan Pri... Broadrick Sec..

22. Where does #6 live?
Ans: Serangoon

23. What's your favourite thing about #5?
Ans: Handsome..Know wat i wan in my life..

24. What do you think of #18?
Ans: Cute..Her smile can brighten ur days.

25. What do #4 & #19 have in common?
Ans: Both galz.. Both of their hugs give mi strengh in my life.

26. What special qualities does #17 hold in your life?
Ans: A gd friend tat can be fun every day.. She is a veri gd sis in sch..

Know each other more..

On 19/6, after my dinner, at 7.45pm reached the St. Andrew Village where the retreat is. Really looking forward 2 see/join them..When i saw them, they r having gallery walk. Abt 11.30pm, we had 2 sleep. We quickly prepared the place and sleep at abt 12am. I cannot sleep the whole nite. Don understand why? Mayb still not use 2 sleeping on the floor..
Next day, some of us cannot wake up in the morning..So..a lots of the plans went out of time. We rushed 4 almost all the things..esp Tim, he is so unhappy bcoz he cannot shared.. Tat is bad, dun learn from us being not having puntuality..Anyway, all the programs are wonderful. I love most is the sharing among us.. I really feel better after saying it out. All the sins and all the things tat kept in our heart 4 so long, i say all out in the sharing..Example: I feel tat my family and i are having a gap. My sis don understand wat i am talking and she don listen 2 me..My parents only know is ask me wat i wan 2 study and help me choose a course 4 me 2 study, never think if i like it. I really don know wat course 2 take, why can't they give me time 2 think.
Let come back 2 the retreat..Hmm..all the galz cry but guyz are mayb scared pai seh so they never cry..ok..after all tis sharing, every1 in the youths is closer.. Anyway, the food is nice. Must really thankz all the people tat prepared and brought all tis food. I took off on Tuesday is the correct choice. I can enjoyed the games wif the rest of the youths tat came at abt 3.45pm. Cheris and Cons prepared the games. Thankz..both of u hav done a gd job.. I can see tat all the youths enjoyed all the games. There also a special guest been invited. He is cool sia.. I find him cool bcoz of the white hair in the middle of his hair. He had wif us all 2gether three sessions. The first session, i was not there. I cannot get leave from work. Never mind, at least i can stay overnite 4 one nite. The second and thirth sessions are meaningful. I learned a lots from his sharing. After all tis fun, is time 4 me 2 go back home bcoz of the next day i hav 2 work.. Happy time fly veri fast but i wouldn 4get tis moments we r 2gether..
Reach home, thought tat my parents or my sis will ask me question..like: Is it fun? Got miss papa, mummy, mei mei? BUT..none of them ask.. i wanted 2 tell them abt the fun i had but they are busy doing their things..
I wouldn like 2 thankz the youths 4 letting me come 2 the retreat..Thankz aunty sally,Uncle victor,Tim,Kar Keat and Eliza 4 all the preparation.. Most of all..Thankz the Lord..

Blog..wat happen?

Suddenly, my blog went mad.. don allow mi 2 type and see it.. Nw..hee hee..i repair le.. Wat 2 blog? oH ok..i pass my piano exam..not very high marks but at least i pass..i thought i will fail..

Sorry, i cannot get off 4 three days..so i will be going only on 20/6.. Anyway, thankz 4 letting mi hav a chance 2 go.. By the way, i really regret tat i cannot go when u all r going 2 the holiday inn at malacca last year during the June.. Hope 2 be there too..i wan 2 hav the fun too..

Fail 2 go higher nitec

I wouldn't be sad if i never get in 2 higher nitec.. i already prepare my heart 2 accept it.. Nw i hav 2 think wat 2 study le..Should i study part-time course or go and learn from outside sch? Blur gal sia..i am a stupid gal..My parents still thought tat i can study accounting so tat my future is better..But i cannot get in..They r very sad bcoz of mi.. Wat 2 do? I also cannot turn the time back 2 change the fact.. Nw only can pray tat the Lord can lead mi 2 the path.. I'm lost..Pls tell mi wat 2 do..

Pic tat taken on the parents' nite..

Taken in church..Vanness's birthday

update myself

Nwadays, so worry abt my result whether i get in 2 my course.. No news yet..LOrd bless mi..If tis course suit mi, pls let mi get in.. i already don know wat 2 do if i don get the course..

Last sat, the dinner is nice but a bit salty.. Really hav lots of fun.. Bring a friend, my family, my godma, my cousin, my aunty and uncle.. Hope they really enjoy sia.. After the dinner, all the youths took a photo..when i receive the pic, i will upload 4 u all 2 see..

I think a lots of people think tat i hav a stead le..The ans is NO.. Wilson and mi are friends..i also told him le.. Friday, suddenly he told mi tat he admire one of my churchmate..i told him 2 tell her but he say tat he still wan mi.. I really don know..i lost..i still don know wat 2 do..

Hmm..feel so excited

Oh..finally, today is Sat again..2nite, my family and i are going 2 a dinner organise by my church..Felt so excited..i also invited my friend..hee hee..Hope tat they really enjoy today..God, touch their hearts 2nite..Let them know u more..

I really enjoy working at my aunty office.. She takes care of mi.. Wow.. Thankz sia.. Oh ya..time flies..My grandmother had came back from USA.. Cool..She brought back a lots of things.. Got chewing gums, clothes, pants, sweets..etc.. She loves all her grandchildrens...ecspecially mi..Thankz god.. Grandmother, i also love u..

Still no news..

Arr..hate it..My ite result still not out..Every1 is studying le and i am still working..Wat if i never get in? i really don know wat 2 do..Hope tat God can lead mi the way..

Today, go temple..feeling sorry 4 God..Hope he can forgive mi..

Oh..man!

Nw the world know wat happen 2 he and mi le..but we hav end the relationship..Nw many problem came..Sophia is my churchmate and she know a guy and tat guy was my sec friend stead..Oh..Nw they haven problem..They don wan 2 hurt each other..Hmm..don only say them..Me too..Problem is also wif me nw..Wat 2 do? I'm scared..i worry abt them..i really don know wat 2 do.. Me, i left him and ask him 2 find tat gal tat like him..i can only do tis bcoz i really cannot feel it..ya! Hurt? i still must say a bit..Left a person tat u hav been 2gether wif 4 more than three weeks..Of course will hurt a bit.. i did cry 4 a while but after tat..i'm ok.. Hope tat every things can be alright..

Tml, had 2 work le..Take care! God bless..Smile!