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I love playing pool

I love playing pool.. Really love it.. Anyone want to play with me? U are welcome to play with me. I don really play well but hope i do improve my skills in playing. If u got play with me before, play with me again to see whether i improve..


I LOVE playing pool!!!!

Not me swimming

Why do i have this feeling in me?

Reached church early. Talked to Valerie & Yvonne. Even though there isn’t much things to say. Most of the topic is on Val. Ah yi reached church, asked me “Why you wear this today?” I was saying that later I going to Jin Wang’s sis bday party. Time passed by very quickly. Teens having their movie. I suppose to go off with Jin Wang to meet Patrick but Valerie hope that we can stay. I went to talk to Jin Wang and very fast Jin Wang already said ok. I know is not because of me or is my reward to please him. All because of Val. I really jealous! I had been thinking all this while since I know Jin Wang. I don’t understand why my heart is giving me this weird feeling. Every time I see him, I need some time to let him off my mind.

We took cab to the chalet. I was so blurr and unknown to the people there. None of them I know. So which means I got no one to talk to. Patrick trying to keep me feels better. He asked my primary school classmate to talk to me. Even though she is my classmate, we have not contact for a long time, so I still feel weird.

After the birthday cake was blown, most of them had to go back home. The day was getting to the end. Patrick & Jin Wang decided to swim, while I waiting for my dad call. I took Jin Wang hp, asked him permission, and look at his msg. The feeling of jealous came again. Didn’t read the entire msg and soon my dad called.

Reached home, went to bath. But my mind never stops flashing on Jin Wang. Heart can feel the hurting. I don’t know why do I feel this way. I don’t dare to tell anyone as people know my stead is Patrick. Sms Jin Wang to hope that some encourage words from him. To my disappointment, he didn’t. I know I am neither pretty nor cute. Suddenly, I took my phone and called Valerie. I trying to disturb her with some jokes but I didn’t. I have no courage to do that. Talked for a few seconds, we hang up. I think it is time for me to sleep, went to my bed. Tears went down, started to cry. My heart really feels like crying. The bitter feeling really make me feel difficult to breathe. Didn’t sleep well the whole night.

Who can tell me "Why" do i have this feeling in me? And this feeling came right after the youth camp.

Time to update...

Time fly... flying fast.. I'm going to be 21 years old.. What will be my future?

Update: I really like him more each day.. I believe tat we are just simply loving each other.
Working life is still the same.. Will never change till i found something better.
My christian is already confirm on 21 Dec 2008. A day i married to Jesus!
The baby i carried is my uncle's son-Lim Yu Zhe. Love him too.. He knows how to smile at u if u love him. So cute baby!

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My Birthday & Update

Happy Birthday Cons!


Suppose to meet Diana on Sat but didn.. She cannot think of a way to meet me. Mayb this is something tat we face all this time. We already say that we are meeting up as i'm just too free. No work or Cell group for me on tat day. Thought tat was our gd time. Things don go smooth in wat we think, Diana got to cut hair plus must go wif her mom.. I ask her to plan/decide on wat to do but she gave up. I suggested a few plans, she insisted on her way. Never mind! Bcoz at least, she said sorry.. And i forgive.


Thank you for blessing on my birthday... Thanks for those sms wishes!

So so...Long time...

Time to type something le.. After so long, still not much to update and blog about..

Do have something change in my life.. Hope to get better:

~My walk with God

~My relationship with Diana

~My lover in my heart

~Friends/Family


Who is my future? What is my future?


I love U!! I really want U!!

Quarrel

I quarrel with diana today.. So pissed off.. Mayb we need a time of cooling down..

Our relationship is going on slope.

Work work..

Sat- Went out with diana to play basketball, then went cell group at church.

Today(Sun)- Must reach church at 12pm, leading worship for Teens, also feel nervous now.. Hope God will send his holy spirt onto me.. I need him today!

I don think i made it..

I don think i pass my childcare course.. Still no news of it... Worry.. I not gd in studying, got no confidence in passing..

My workplace friends asked me to go take O'level.. I got no confidence la.. Really scared of taking tis risk.

How? How?

Wat should i do? Where is my future? How can i reach to my family hopes on me?

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Photos during CNY period

Oooo...

Time to blog something..

Today, went swimming with Ling.. Luckily no rain.. Even it's a short time, due to my father going home.. I feel that we had fun. Not the way that we keep to ourself but talk and understand each other.. And she love SHOW nw, means by the singer Luo Zhi Xiang aka Xiao Zhu.. Hee hee.. Small pig! Haahaaha.


My god bro went oversea le.. His father sponsor him de.. God ma went wif him.. Still not back yet.

Chinese new year reaching soon.. Abt 2 weeks left only. Brought some clothes but still not plan wat to wear. The feeling is still like.. Wanting to buy more clothes..


Work? Yeah.. working is fun but time to feel tired and restless.. All the best, Sin Ying! Jia you! The children are ur sunshine.. Cheers!


My life? The guy i like, hav gone.. I'm not sad.. God hav better plan for me de.. The guy tat like me, i told him to give up.. But i know he wouldn give up de.. I still praying over my love life.. Other than this, my life is almost the same..

Closer to God each day!

Started to miss them..

Arr.. starting to miss my God-bros.. They are leaving to Aust soon after O'level end.. True.. We are not close but we are once a close cousin. So still got many memories in my heart. Miss all cousins too.. They are those who forever close.. close cousins..

Course is starting to stress me.. Lots of projects and assessments le. No holiday for me.. Sad sad..

Some words to my cousins..

Hey hey,

time fly...

Everyone grows up le..


Do u think meeting each other is easy nw? The ans is No.. Each of us hav our own things. We will be busy and busy..

Typing tis post, for my dear cousins to understand.. As...


Viceroy will be going oversea for studies. Wish u all the best for ur O'level. I only can type here bcoz he block me in MSN and we rarely see each other. Bo pian.. I started to miss him as he is my god-bro. I know u will hate me. But i still wan to wish u all the best. No matter u are my god-bro or cousin, i really hope u can treat me as ur family member.
Vickie also my god-bro. I agree tat i shouldn be both of your god-sis, as i am not close to u all. Ling should be the one and she is much more better than me.

Jun Jie, i know u stop wushu le. I don wan to ask much. Not much to tell u.. but i like to wish u all the best for ur O'level. Ling, my dearest, i know i hurt u lots.. SORRY! Very sorry! I am not a gd cousin, so please forgive me. I beg u all, pls treat me as ur cousin.. I don wan to be the odd ones.. I wan to hav fun with all of u..


I love all of u, my dear cousins..
Pls don leave me!

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9th Aug'07.. National Day!

How hot is my National Day? Hmm.. Can say not very. But i love my dad! He knows tat no one wan to be crazy like me.. Doing tattoos on arms. Why didn i put on face? Pai Seh la...



So my father being so gd... He went to put it on face and went crazy with me.. Thanks pa pa..

nothing much to smile

There is a smile tat worth it. But where is the smile? I'm missing tat smile. I wan it back! Who can give me?

No more in life.


Part of my life is missing.



Even nw i smile at u, u will never see the best smile from me. Hurt is not the point but is you tat must think of wat u done. You hav never think why friends don need u. And your thinking is only till tat point.